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Category: thoughts
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More
Keeping it Together, just
In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Old Patterns
Checking in early today with some anxiety as I awoke out of a stress producing dream, that must have stirred … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Abundance of Miracles
Gosh what a joy and an honour and privilege to witness the abundance and the multiple miracles around in nature. … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More
Processing about of Self Judging
Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Ebbs and Struggles
Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
This Moment is It
The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More
Sunday Morning
The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More
Being with Uncertainty
The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Everything is fine until I Think!
And try to control things. I start thinking and reflecting, then it feels crowded in here. I lose touch with … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Here and Now
The realisation that there is only the present comes in waves. And my mind hates that because there’s nothing for … More
Calm after the Storm
After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
Surrendering Anxiety
Here we go, right on cue, after tastes of fabulous freedom recently, anxiety provoking thoughts arrive a day or two … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Thinking it into Existence
Continuing with dropping the thoughts and just trusting the Ground, over and over…..though less requirement recently, and it’s more automatic … More
Mindfulness and Surprising Spontaneity
Dropping each thought as I notice them and trusting over and over here. Drop and trust drop and trust. Through … More
Collapsing the Stickman
When I allow thoughts to arrive unnoticed, my mind can build them into little stories in my head that I … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Thoughts – Dropping and Trusting
I’m a walking, sitting, lying in bed, showering, shopping, chatting, bill paying, getting dressed and undressed, dog walking, ‘drop and … More
Just Sitting in Discomfort
Without doing something distracting to make myself feel better or taking something to make it go away or reduce the … More
Opening and Closing
To not close my heart and to instead remain open (and free). That sums it all up. The Mission. I … More
Eckhart Tolle
I watched this yesterday and oh my, is he on fire and in full flow of transmitting the wisdom of … More
Sticky thoughts This Morning
The thoughts are random and fearful this morning. Bombarded from many angles of threat and suggestions to be fearful. You … More
Straddling two Worlds
There’s one world in which we help and care for each other. We cooperate freely and giving is not perceived … More
Maintaining life during Covid
On this rollercoaster of acclimatising to Covid I’m experiencing very vivid intense dreams, leaving me baffled and emotionally hungover in … More
Hard weather
Literally, it’s been pouring and blowing a gale with only minor breaks for weeks and weeks, unrelenting. What a metaphor … More
Lowering Expectations
This has been a challenging process for me. As a person addicted to optimism and a delight of imagining that … More
Happiness
I’ve been experiencing it the last couple of days. Things are going well. Perhaps more a state of wellbeing than … More
A Desire to Impress others
I noticed a thought that I felt embarrassed to witness this morning. The thought was, ‘I hope she notices how … More
Riding Worry
I ride the potentially fear producing thoughts these days with greater ease than before. This is what I do. ‘Oh … More
The Resistance
It arrives like huge waves charging at me at times. It’s been even more insistent since I have become kinder … More
So far so good…
Have gone many many days now in a state of relative stability and wellbeing and so far have not done … More
Thoughts effect our Feelings
I was walking along in the park and I noticed a sharp drop in my mood. Then I realised that … More
Easing gently into Self Care
And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More
New territory, Dread and Courage
I did my first counselling session with a real client last week! It came naturally and went smoothly. I was … More
On Mindfulness, the dangers…
I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More
How I think, How I Feel
I sometimes have a thought something like ‘ oh everything is chaotic, it’s scary, and I’m barely coping’. I also … More
Soundbath, paralysed friend, new flat
I went to see a flat to buy on Saturday with my Mum, and think it may very well be … More
Recovery Day Two
How can I be kind and nurture myself today? Another long lie starts the day, cosy inside looking out at … More
Quiet Poise and Pondering
A glimpse of what stability feels and looks like recently. Smoothness. Not getting in my own way. Allowing the perfection … More
Today’s Process, Resting
‘Resting’ rather than ‘doing’ or ‘trying’ or ‘striving’ to adjust or replace or avoid or cling onto or get rid … More
More Peace, less Strain
A few days more have passed of living without my favourite bad habits, alcohol, sugar, overeating and Facebook. And all … More
Learning to Rest with it All 