Taking risks, trusting…

The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More

‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’

Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More

Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

Feeling Safe

In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More

Reconnecting – List

The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More

Luxury Waking Up

The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More

Saturday Morning

Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More

Surrendering

It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More

No Complaints

The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More

Love Bombs

I’ve been dropping these love bombs on my beleaguered conditioned psyche recently. Think there’s quite a lot of inner adjustments … More

You are held, you are cared for, you are loved

Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More

I love, I respect and I like Myself

Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More

You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You

Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More

Surfing Anxiety

That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More

Monday Morning Healing

Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More

Shadow Work

Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More

What a Great Day

Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More

Learning to Rest in Awareness

Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More

Testing testing !

Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More

Appreciating the Small

Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More

Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness

Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More

Testing back into Unchanging Stillness

I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More

Low Mood Morning

The colourful visual zigzags started yesterday signalling the start of a migraine and then it arrived. Mildly painful only but … More

Resistance and Suffering

Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

Transcendental Smell

There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More

Being with Uncertainty

The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More

Asking for Help

4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More

Savouring

Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More

Tibetan Dream

I have been falling asleep listening to 1000+ year old Tibetan Dzogchen texts recently, and last night with Vairotsana. These … More