Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
Tag: stillness
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Different Rhythm
A little bumpy adjusting last night to not having my usual near complete peace and solitude! Young people drinking and … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
More Calmness
Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Stillness and Flux
The changing dynamic appearances and arisings of life emerge spontaneously within an alive field of open vibrant spaciousness. If there … More
Emotions in the Body
I light a little tea candle and place it in front of me as a reminder to feel into the … More
Aloneness
I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More
Learning to Rest with it All
And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More
Transcendental Smell
There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More
This Moment is It
The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More
Sunday Morning
The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More
Chat with an Enlightened Person
And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More
What Self?
I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Surrounding Suffering
I had another night of listening to the centuries old Dzogchen texts read out by Samaneri Jayasara. I’ve got her … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Intimate
Intimacy with this very moment happening right now. As I walk down the hall I go real slow. I breathe … More
I can’t get no…
That’s not a complaint. Just recording the changing scenery here. Vast impersonal space opens up, inside me and around me. … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Testing the Wings
Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
Losing the Doer
I was cleaning out the vacuum earlier. I realised that I was somewhat rushing to finish the experience to get … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Little Life Update
Travelling along in the ever present moment here if that’s not too much of a contradiction. There are many moments … More
Very Wise Quote – HH Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit. … More
Collapsing the Stickman
When I allow thoughts to arrive unnoticed, my mind can build them into little stories in my head that I … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Peace
I’ve been submerging myself in fully surrendering to the vibrant emptiness and silence of me. All emphasis on happenings on … More
The World is a Feeling
I feel the leaves gentle float through the air to the ground, the crows high in the tree roosting, the … More
Long Wise Quote
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit. … More
Swan feather in the Breeze
A quick Messiah Netflix review
This series had a very positive effect on me. It was spiritually uplifting, and I am non religious. I binged … More
Allowing Happiness
I once read that a common dying wish is – ‘I wish I had allowed myself to be happier’. Allowed … More
Easing gently into Self Care
And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More
The little Things
This snow we have been having has slowed us all down, made roads impassable for a few days, cancelled work. … More
Gusts of the unexpected
One minute it’s all down in the dumps next it’s encouraged and cheerful. I’m like a leaf on the wind … More
Short Wise Quote – Adayashanti
“Delight is a secret. And the secret is this…”
“Delight is a secret. And the secret is this: to grow quiet and listen; to stop thinking, stop moving, almost … More
Learning to Rest with it All 