Making the best of a not a very happy period just now. The fear tempting thoughts are still coming at … More
Tag: money fears
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Too much Happening
Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Back Here
My 3 months of this long job is drawing to a close. It has been a joy not to have … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Choosing to Let Life go Well
I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More
Worry Hijack Dissected
I’ve been communicating about and celebrating my successes here lately so here’s an example of different type of success, a … More
A Spiritual Emergency
I’ve heard it called that. A few days of inner agony mostly on than off for days and days…angst, anxiety, … More
Numb
I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Took a Risk
Quite a big one for me with my conditioning to please others. Risking another’s wrath. And experiencing the fall out … More
Lowering Expectations
This has been a challenging process for me. As a person addicted to optimism and a delight of imagining that … More
Riding Worry
I ride the potentially fear producing thoughts these days with greater ease than before. This is what I do. ‘Oh … More
Burnout no More!
Time to recover my sanity, by reducing the stress that has led to this slow descent into a state of … More
My Journey from Unworthy to Worthy
This has been the focus for the last week or two. Realising that as a result of some beliefs I … More
Bit of a diary entry this one
Don’t expect anyone to read it as it’s long and a splurging out of troubles. Just need to express how … More
Feeling Anxious
A few things going on and I’m feeling disquiet and some anxiety about. Things not going the way I want … More
How to deal with savings ethically?
This is a great question for me as I have never had to ask it before. I have not been … More