How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Tag: stress
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Fun and Sharing day
Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Facing the Disturbing Stuff
Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More
Resistance and Suffering
Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More
Processing about of Self Judging
Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Collapsing the Stickman
When I allow thoughts to arrive unnoticed, my mind can build them into little stories in my head that I … More
An Unravelling
Had a big fat one this week. Inside expansion and unravelling of illusions being reflected outside. The obstacles are coming … More
Numb
I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Took a Risk
Quite a big one for me with my conditioning to please others. Risking another’s wrath. And experiencing the fall out … More
Emotion from the Past
I went for one walk with Michael, a beautiful open sharing interaction and he even apologised for the anger outbursts/ending … More
Trusting Yourself
Quite often a strong inner prompting suggests a course of action that is contrary to the one we have made … More
How I stopped biting my Nails after 52 years
In my baby book it was written when my age was just 2, “she bites her nails”. And I have … More
Clearing Clutter helps!
I’ve had a paperwork pile which has been growing in front of my eyes here on the table since May. … More
Maintenance Diet
Sometimes life is like being in the birthing room having a long painless labour. A time of waiting patiently. While … More
Well and Happy!
After so many many months of daily managing of anxiety, it has subsided for the last few weeks. And wow … More
No Alcohol Experiment – Day 9
As I mentioned in my last post, I’m experimenting with cutting out alcohol for a while to see what happens … More
Bit of a diary entry this one
Don’t expect anyone to read it as it’s long and a splurging out of troubles. Just need to express how … More
When it’s Tough in Here
It’s really windy and pouring and it’s going to be an all-day-er. I notice that when anxiety is present, combined … More
New territory, Dread and Courage
I did my first counselling session with a real client last week! It came naturally and went smoothly. I was … More
Learning to Rest with it All 