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Learning to Rest with it All

“Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come. Let go of what is happening now. Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. Relax, right now, and rest” Tilopa

Tag: stress

Incoming

Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A … More

thoughts, fear, worry, present moment awareness, nature walks, resistance, stress, silence, anxiety

Thank you Project

I’m compiling a list of companies and service providers and individuals who I’m going to write to and thank. Things … More

anxiety, Appreciation, being present, breathing, building resilience, fear, gratitude, nature walks, painful times, stress, suffering

Contraction and Surrender

Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More

anxiety, Appreciation, being present, letting go, mindfulness, stress, surrender experiment, worry

Handshake with Feelings

Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More

anxiety, being present, fear, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, love, mindfulness, stress, worry

Tension Building

Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More

anxiety, fear, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts, worry

Gnarly Knots

8am. I’m amazed at the perfect choreography of it all, how well designed it is for my individual resistances. In … More

anxiety, dread, gratitude, pain, refuge, stress

Keeping it Together, just

In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More

anxiety, Appreciation, covid, fear, gratitude, mindfulness, self care, stress, worry

Sent the price

I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make … More

anxiety, business, fear, stress, worry

Lowness

Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More

anxiety, asking for help, fear, money fears, Money Issues, stress, suffering, thoughts, worry

Facing it All

“Thank you for being here, it’s good to have your company”, I say to Elsa when she comes over for … More

gayatri, gratitude, self love, self soothing, stress, suffering

Still in Worry

This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More

anxiety, business, fear, guilt, money, money fears, resistance, shame, stress, suffering, worry

Sunk Mood at the Start

Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More

anxiety, building resilience, stress, suffering, worry

A dream and meaning

Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More

anxiety, fear, self compassion, stress, trusting life

Too much Happening

Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More

anxiety, money fears, self care, self sabotage, stress

Rainy Monday

Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea, … More

self care, self soothing, stress, worry

Facing Reactivity

Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More

aversion, dread, fear, fear of success, guilt, misophonia, painful times, resistance, self defence, shame, stress, suffering, thoughts, upper limit problem, worry

Imagination and Suffering

A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More

anxiety, fear, letting go, self compassion, self soothing, stress, worry

You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You

Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More

being present, building resilience, covid, feeling safe, love, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, stress, surrender experiment

Hello again Sadness and Anxiety

How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More

addiction, honesty, pain, self sabotage, stress, worry

Fearlessness Training

The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More

anxiety, fear, resistance, stress, worry

Angst

Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More

dzogchen, fear, self compassion, stress, suffering, worry

Undoings

Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More

childhood damage, fear, letting go, stress, suffering, worry

Half Full/Half Empty

The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More

anxiety, fear, money, resistance, stress, thoughts, worry

Fun and Sharing day

Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More

business, fear, stress, suffering, thoughts, worry

Shadow work by Dream

Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More

anxiety, fear, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Worry Thoughts

The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More

anxiety, fear, stress, suffering, thoughts, trusting life, worry

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

anxiety, beauty of nature, childhood damage, disturbing feelings, irritation, letting go, mindfulness, misophonia, nature walks, resistance, stress, surrender experiment

Resistance and Suffering

Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More

building resilience, letting go, resistance, stress, suffering, trusting life

Processing about of Self Judging

Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More

childhood damage, guilt, old friends and family, shame, stress, suffering, worry

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

anxiety, building resilience, fear, freedom, nature, nature walks, resistance, self soothing, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Jumpy This Morning

Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More

anxiety, fear, feeling safe, guilt, letting go, resistance, shame, stress, trusting life, worry

And Back to Peace again

Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More

anxiety, being present, fear, mindfulness, stillness, stress, surrender experiment, thoughts

An Awake Day

A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More

attachment to preferences, beauty of nature, being present, dzogchen, feeling safe, flourishing, gratitude, here and now, inner peace, letting go, mindfulness, nature walks, old friends and family, present moment awareness, separation, stillness, stress, surrender experiment, thoughts, trusting life

Collapsing the Stickman

When I allow thoughts to arrive unnoticed, my mind can build them into little stories in my head that I … More

dzogchen, habits, inner peace, mindfulness, mindulness, present moment awareness, stillness, stress, thoughts

An Unravelling

Had a big fat one this week. Inside expansion and unravelling of illusions being reflected outside. The obstacles are coming … More

anxiety, inner peace, relaxing, self care, stress, worry

Numb

I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More

anxiety, business, money, money fears, Money Issues, pain, resistance, stress, suffering

A Tightening

I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More

anger, anxiety, business, fear, guilt, money fears, pain, painful times, resistance, shame, stress, suffering, thoughts, worry

Took a Risk

Quite a big one for me with my conditioning to please others. Risking another’s wrath. And experiencing the fall out … More

breathing, business, letting go, money fears, stress

Emotion from the Past

I went for one walk with Michael, a beautiful open sharing interaction and he even apologised for the anger outbursts/ending … More

being present, friends, old friends and family, pain, stress, thoughts

Trusting Yourself

Quite often a strong inner prompting suggests a course of action that is contrary to the one we have made … More

anxiety, desire, inner peace, mindfulness, self compassion, silence, stress, success, thoughts, trusting life, worry

How I stopped biting my Nails after 52 years

In my baby book it was written when my age was just 2, “she bites her nails”. And I have … More

anxiety, Appreciation, nail biting, Recovery, self care, self soothing, stress, worry

Clearing Clutter helps!

I’ve had a paperwork pile which has been growing in front of my eyes here on the table since May. … More

habits, stress

Maintenance Diet

Sometimes life is like being in the birthing room having a long painless labour. A time of waiting patiently. While … More

nature walks, Recovery, self compassion, self soothing, stress

Well and Happy!

After so many many months of daily managing of anxiety, it has subsided for the last few weeks. And wow … More

addiction, freedom, gratitude, self care, self sabotage, self soothing, stress, trusting life

No Alcohol Experiment – Day 9

As I mentioned in my last post, I’m experimenting with cutting out alcohol for a while to see what happens … More

building resilience, Recovery, self care, stress

Bit of a diary entry this one

Don’t expect anyone to read it as it’s long and a splurging out of troubles. Just need to express how … More

anxiety, money fears, self compassion, stress, suffering, thoughts, worry

When it’s Tough in Here

It’s really windy and pouring and it’s going to be an all-day-er. I notice that when anxiety is present, combined … More

anxiety, fight or flight reponse, Recovery, self care, self soothing, stress, thoughts, wellbeing, worry

New territory, Dread and Courage

I did my first counselling session with a real client last week! It came naturally and went smoothly. I was … More

anxiety, fear, self compassion, stress, success, thoughts, worry

On Mindfulness, the dangers…

I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More

childhood damage, compassion, gratitude, ptsd, self care, self compassion, self soothing, stress, worry

Listening to Feelings

I am gradually designing my life to be full of what I love to do and what makes me happy, … More

business, fear, feeling safe, stress

Business Overwhelm Today

Giving myself permission to have a long moany analyses of what I like and dont like about running a business. … More

business, love, self love, stress

Wonder Woman Club Review

I spent the afternoon at a woman’s business club meeting, the Wonder Woman Club. How I enjoyed myself there meeting … More

asking for help, business success, Recovery, self compassion, self love, stress, support

Snakes and Ladders!

Another meltdown! So many things going wrong right now in business. Its like a game of snakes and ladders. Mostly … More

PERMISSION, stress, success

Help is Available

I have two life coaches at the moment, a therapist and an occasional mindfulness coach. What has happened over the … More

business, money, Recovery, stress

So I sacked the Guy

The build up to this for me was so very stressful. I really dislike hurting people. But as the custodian … More

anxiety, stress

Saturday anxiety flavours

In bed of course, the weekly treat to loll around with no need to do anything or go anywhere. My … More

anxiety, fear, self care, stress, worry

Horrible

So I went to see a client, saw how badly my man had finished her job, she didn’t pay me … More

anxiety, stress, struggle, worry

In Anxiety I’m Scared of Everything

I wanted to mention this because I don’t think I did while in the state I was in last week. … More

anxiety, compassion, fear, self sabotage, stress

Awoke feeling stress

How is that bloody possible after 2 chilled days and a great sleep?! not sure why at all. Woke up … More

childhood damage, fear, self compassion, stress, worry

Being Honest about Fear

I am so tempted to just come right out with the anxiety I experience in public, on social media such … More

anxiety, stress

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