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Learning to Rest with it All

“Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come. Let go of what is happening now. Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. Relax, right now, and rest” Tilopa

Tag: resistance

Returning

Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More

anxiety, fear, resistance, self compassion, self soothing, worry

Still in Worry

This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More

anxiety, business, fear, guilt, money, money fears, resistance, shame, stress, suffering, worry

Negative Reactions

A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More

anger, Michael Singer, painful times, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts

Facing Reactivity

Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More

aversion, dread, fear, fear of success, guilt, misophonia, painful times, resistance, self defence, shame, stress, suffering, thoughts, upper limit problem, worry

Encounter with Resistance

Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More

being present, feeling safe, gratitude, habits, letting go, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self sabotage, self soothing, surrender experiment, upper limit problem

Back to Love

Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More

Appreciation, feeling safe, letting go, love, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Handing over Objections

Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More

acceptance, being present, letting go, resistance, self care, self compassion, self soothing, suffering

Pausing and Allowing

Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More

Appreciation, fear, letting go, love, resistance, self care, self soothing, suffering, surrender experiment

Shadow Work

Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More

building resilience, childhood damage, guilt, letting go, resistance, shame, suffering, surrender experiment

Fearlessness Training

The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More

anxiety, fear, resistance, stress, worry

Half Full/Half Empty

The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More

anxiety, fear, money, resistance, stress, thoughts, worry

Testing testing !

Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More

acceptance, building resilience, reactiveness, resistance, suffering, worry

Emotions in the Body

I light a little tea candle and place it in front of me as a reminder to feel into the … More

anxiety, feeling safe, habits, kindness, resistance, self compassion, stillness, success, the body doesn’t lie

Relationship with Mum

I will maybe explore this over a few days as it will be too long. First I’ll lay out the … More

childhood damage, family relationships on the spiritual path, old friends and family, painful times, resistance

Surfacing Core Wounds

I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More

anxiety, childhood damage, fear of success, memories, painful times, resistance, self love, upper limit problem

Dissolving Identity

Everything I ever wanted is already here. I was just watching this video by Angelo DiLullo in bed this morning … More

being present, inner peace, letting go, resistance, trusting life

Testing back into Unchanging Stillness

I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More

beauty of nature, building resilience, letting go, love, mindfulness, nature walks, present moment awareness, resistance, self compassion, self soothing, thoughts

Honesty Dose

I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More

business success, fear, fear of success, letting go, money, money fears, resistance, thoughts, worry

Defending a Position

Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More

anxiety, aversion, letting go, resistance, suffering, thoughts

“Stop being jerked like a puppet”. Marcus Aurelius

I watch myself being jerked like a puppet by events in my environment that my ego has decided ‘should’ not … More

anger, aversion, emotions, letting go, Michael Singer, misophonia, resistance, shame, surrender experiment

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

anxiety, beauty of nature, childhood damage, disturbing feelings, irritation, letting go, mindfulness, misophonia, nature walks, resistance, stress, surrender experiment

Monday Mornin’ Rain

Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More

habits, letting go, old friends and family, resistance, surrender experiment, trusting life, wellbeing

Just this Moment

The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More

anxiety, being present, dzogchen, fear, feeling safe, here and now, letting go, resistance, self soothing, thoughts, trusting life, worry

Day to day Life

May Day public holiday so the whole team is off. A beautiful atmosphere comes over the city on these public … More

freedom, resistance, self care

Resistance and Suffering

Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More

building resilience, letting go, resistance, stress, suffering, trusting life

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

anxiety, building resilience, fear, freedom, nature, nature walks, resistance, self soothing, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Ebbs and Struggles

Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More

aversion, pain, painful times, resistance, self compassion, suffering, ugly thoughts

Letting Go

I’m struggling today, migraine started yesterday and lying on the sofa now. Feeling low energy and mood. Can’t find anything … More

family relationships on the spiritual path, friends, letting go, old friends and family, resistance, surrender experiment

Actually doing it

Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More

anxiety, Appreciation, enlightenment, feeling safe, flourishing, freedom, gratitude, Intimacy, letting go, non-duality, resistance, self care, success, thoughts, trusting life

Sunday Morning

The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More

aversion, inner peace, letting go, mindfulness, relaxing, resistance, resting in awareness, stillness, thoughts

Chat with an Enlightened Person

And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More

Appreciation, being present, fear, Intimacy, letting go, peace, resistance, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Ego Games

Sunshine outside, and listening to Nisargadatta being read, and it is sublime. This one will be on repeat over and … More

being present, ego, honesty, letting go, non-duality, resistance, ugly thoughts

Asking for Help

4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More

Appreciation, asking for help, building resilience, childhood damage, feeling safe, inspiration, Recovery, resistance, suffering, wellbeing

Shadow work

Sitting by the river alone. That is indeed where I found myself yesterday. Walked up the road over the lane … More

being present, dzogchen, fear, letting go, recapitulation, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Jumpy This Morning

Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More

anxiety, fear, feeling safe, guilt, letting go, resistance, shame, stress, trusting life, worry

Strange World out There

Today. It’s 8am and I’m at the kitchen table, lovely long sleep as usual. Refreshed and ready for a brand … More

anxiety, covid, letting go, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment

Feeling Off

I call these periods mini ‘dark nights of the soul’. I like the drama of that phrase and it does … More

letting go, resistance, self care, self soothing, separation, suffering

Breaking free of the Social Shackles Continued

I have been exploring how we can be held back by others and motivated to hold ourselves back by our … More

acceptance, family relationships on the spiritual path, fear, flourishing, letting go, old friends and family, resistance, self compassion, self sabotage, success, thriving, trusting life, upper limit problem

Adversity as a Friend

One of the most exciting discoveries of the last couple of turbulent years for me is that personal adversity can … More

being present, dzogchen, feeling safe, freedom, gratitude, inner peace, letting go, refuge, relaxing, resistance, thoughts

Testing the Wings

Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More

anxiety, being present, building resilience, curiosity, fear, feeling safe, gratitude, mindfulness, peace, resistance, self compassion, stillness, worry

Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks

“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More

Appreciation, being present, fear of success, feeling safe, flourishing, freedom, inner peace, letting go, love, mindfulness, Recovery, relaxing, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, success, suffering, trusting life

The Power of Admitting it

“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More

acceptance, anxiety, aversion, fear, love, pain, resistance, self compassion, self soothing, suffering, worry

Screen Time

Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More

being present, breathing, feeling safe, living abundantly, mindfulness, refuge, resistance, stillness, thoughts

“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“

“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More

anxiety, building resilience, feeling safe, mindfulness, mindulness, Recovery, refuge, resistance, self care, self compassion, self soothing, suffering, thoughts, worry

Faith, Trust, and Surrender

Still here deep in the folds of the current cycle – my little dark night of the soul raging away, … More

anxiety, Appreciation, dzogchen, feeling safe, gratitude, refuge, resistance, self compassion, self soothing, worry

Enlightened Mentor

I had my second session last night. I had been making big leaps and bounds out of my shackles into … More

being present, fear of success, freedom, letting go, mindfulness, refuge, resistance, self compassion, thoughts, upper limit problem, worry

Numb

I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More

anxiety, business, money, money fears, Money Issues, pain, resistance, stress, suffering

A Tightening

I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More

anger, anxiety, business, fear, guilt, money fears, pain, painful times, resistance, shame, stress, suffering, thoughts, worry

Navigating a Balanced way

From dancing with joy in the woods in the rain the other day to a slump in mood and a … More

attachment to preferences, beauty of nature, feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, relaxing, resistance, self compassion, shame

Happy and a bit Lost

I awoke feeling well rested and actually a touch blissful. In a gentle little private heaven. Pleasure in my bones. … More

anxiety, beauty of nature, freedom, gratitude, resistance, self care, surrender experiment

Surrender Experiment – Day 3 Reflections

I’ve had 2 days of doing my surrender experiment now, and I’m delighted to say that I have managed to … More

anxiety, attachment to preferences, breathing, building resilience, inner peace, peace, relaxing, resistance

The Resistance

It arrives like huge waves charging at me at times. It’s been even more insistent since I have become kinder … More

anxiety, fear, resistance, self soothing, thoughts, worry

Easing gently into Self Care

And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More

anxiety, being present, breathing, building resilience, childhood damage, compassion, feeling safe, here and now, kindness, mindfulness, present moment awareness, Recovery, resistance, self care, self defence, self love, self soothing, stillness, trusting life

Today’s recovery Plan

I’m aware I’m not out of the woods yet, and vulnerable to descent into gloom and anxiety. So for a … More

anxiety, mindfulness, resistance, self compassion, self sabotage, self soothing, stress

Undoing the grip of Anxiety

I have been feeling a lot of anxiety recently so got a bit of a  moan today here for you! I … More

fear, gratitude, resistance, stress, thoughts, worry

Just observing

I am watching this recovery process day by day, as well as being fully submerged within it too. I feel … More

love, nature, resistance

Relief is Possible woohoo!

I love experiencing relief from my self created angst and misery. I am learning the art of accepting what is happening, … More

acceptance, being present, breathing, here and now, nature of mind, resistance, shame, thoughts
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