The fear of relaxing has been coming up a lot, based I think on the untrue belief that if I … More
Tag: trusting life
Opening and Allowing
The magical feel good juju that is gathered up by being present is not a reward that the ego/personality wants. … More
Into the Now
‘This is all there is’ and ‘this is it’ have been resounding this morning as I find myself somehow sort … More
Earthly matters, unearthly art
It was a crowded with people and activity day, and I just took one thing at a time. The therapy … More
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Feeling Blessed
Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with … More
Smoothness in the Present
Alert presence moment to moment then broken by thought wandering, then returning to being present. Over and over and over, … More
Magic of Nature
The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let … More
Little Things
I thank the dog for letting me into her space and tickle her tummy as she lies back so very … More
A Passage
Awoke happy and deeply relaxed this morning, stretched out savouring the experience….no thoughts at all, just an awareness of the … More
Absence of Fear
Here I am again in this moment. Always this moment, and everything seems to slow right down and extend out. … More
Changing Vistas
I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the … More
Intimacy with the Now
The single act of choosing to be in the present moment has profound effects. I notice a big resistance to … More
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More
Being with Disturbing Feelings
Found the courage again to allow the disturbing reactive annoyed feelings to be felt. I go into the feelings and … More
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
Riding Highs and Lows
The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More
Highs, and are they even Lows
Kind of knocked sideways or something with this tooth pain going on still. Though I don’t think anything about it … More
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Little Things
The little experiences. The ordinary moments. I notice clearly that if I take care of those with care and love … More
Greeting Myself in the Morning
Good morning and warm greetings to you. Welcome to another day. I love you. I say to myself on awakening. … More
The Joy Waiting for Us
A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More
Feeling Alive
Really feeling myself just now, now that I’m fully back in the body….I am aware of all the energies as … More
In the shower noticing
In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
Celebrating Achievements
My son Tobie and his gf J are still here and she cooked a wonderful Portuguese duck and rice dinner … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
The Revolution is an Inside Job
Little to reflect on personally as it is quiet here inside and out in my immediate environment in the depths … More
Big Changes in the Air
I woke up having the most lovely kiss with Elon Musk! 😂 The felt that was protecting my summerhouse outside … More
Socialising
Bit of a round up summary of the last few days. The journey continues into the New Year, it’s all … More
Different Rhythm
A little bumpy adjusting last night to not having my usual near complete peace and solitude! Young people drinking and … More
Lot Happening
Son arrived home for Xmas, his gf arriving tomorrow, finishing up the construction side this week for the 2 week … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
The land that is nowhere
And the deeper secret of the secret. The land that is nowhere, that is your true home. iChing Don’t look … More
The Expanded Self
It was useful to read this Course in Miracles Excerpt earlier, to be reminded of that sense of an expanded … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Taking risks, trusting…
The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More
Loving everything…
….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More
“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Cicero
1. My adorable son, my very long term friends and family and lovely dog. My new friends E, R, E … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
Less Afraid of Feelings
Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Feeling Safe
In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More
Making Life a bit more Fun
Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More
Saturday Morning
Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
Thank you Body, thank you Shower…
I look down at my body standing there and I thank it for working so well. Then I thank the … More
I love you, I admire you, I thank you….
Whenever I surfaced from sleep in the early hours, I would say, “I love you Susan”, and then onto several … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
Thank you
Looked after despite my fears, time and time again. I doubted and was starting to worry about the lack of … More
Learning to Rest with it All 