Shadow Work

Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More

Shame

Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More

Angst

Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More

Undoings

Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More

Therapy Session

Light rain bringing such wonderful smells. It was lovely to walk in the fields and woods in the rain yesterday, … More

Hello Sad

Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More

Testing testing !

Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More

Fun and Sharing day

Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More

Shadow work by Dream

Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More

Worry Thoughts

The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More

Gratitude Balm

Further in I go, a feeling of falling and of desolation of hope – no less 😂 oh I do … More

Being Open and Feeling Low

Being somewhat unravelled, undone and deconstructed just now, I’m not shining my usual note. There’s a low mood visiting and … More

Aloneness

I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More

Wednesday Diary Entry

Had a lovely evening at G and M’s. I appreciated the elaborate meal they made for my birthday, though I … More

Moany Monday Mornin’

Headache is lingering, so I have a doctor appointment today. It is so pouring with rain out there and will … More

Defending a Position

Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More

Low Mood Morning

The colourful visual zigzags started yesterday signalling the start of a migraine and then it arrived. Mildly painful only but … More

Criticising, company, appreciation….

Slept from 9pm till 6am, and feel well for it. Yesterday morning I took one of the men to work. … More

Resistance and Suffering

Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More

Processing about of Self Judging

Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More

Processing a Fear Visitor

In came surges of quite intense raw anxiety as I lay expecting to be comfortably drifting in and out of … More

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

Ebbs and Struggles

Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More

Being with Uncertainty

The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More

Quiet time Now

Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More

Diary entry – a Tuesday

So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More

Connecting with Difficult Feelings

The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More

Asking for Help

4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More

Shadow work

Sitting by the river alone. That is indeed where I found myself yesterday. Walked up the road over the lane … More

Surrounding Suffering

I had another night of listening to the centuries old Dzogchen texts read out by Samaneri Jayasara. I’ve got her … More