Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A … More
Tag: worry
Earthly matters, unearthly art
It was a crowded with people and activity day, and I just took one thing at a time. The therapy … More
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Back to the Present
Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin. … More
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More
Riding Highs and Lows
The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More
The Choice
I talk kindly to myself. Here we are in this moment. Breathing in and out from the belly. Notice the … More
Calm amid the Storm
Yes feeling balanced despite no change in circumstances. Feels like a miracle. Everything is the same as it was that … More
Keeping it Together, just
In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More
Sent the price
I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make … More
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More
I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….
Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
The Little Things
The little experiences. The ordinary moments. I notice clearly that if I take care of those with care and love … More
What was your worry three worries ago?
Asks Dan Siegel We can’t usually remember, they come and go and usually nothing bad happens other than a bunch … More
Follow the Joy
Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More
In the shower noticing
In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More
Noticing
As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, … More
Into the Body
There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More
In the Present with Nature
Enjoyed yesterday out in the park getting more still inside. I set myself a challenge to find beauty in the … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Love to the Inner Child in Us
I enjoy being awake in bed between about 5am to 7am, especially during these dark winter days. Several cups of … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Sunk Mood at the Start
Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More
Emerging from Turbulence
I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Recovery Time
‘Twas a mixed bag our Xmas. And now I’m recovering my marbles back here with some space on my own … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Rainy Monday
Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea, … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
Thank you
Looked after despite my fears, time and time again. I doubted and was starting to worry about the lack of … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Hello again Sadness and Anxiety
How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Friday Ponderings
A little follow on from yesterdays musings… “People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Testing testing !
Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More
Learning to Rest with it All 