Shadow Work

Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More

Shame

Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More

What a Great Day

Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More

Undoings

Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More

Therapy Session

Light rain bringing such wonderful smells. It was lovely to walk in the fields and woods in the rain yesterday, … More

Relationship with Mum

I will maybe explore this over a few days as it will be too long. First I’ll lay out the … More

Surfacing Core Wounds

I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More

Privileged Abandonment

I was on a course all day yesterday about the damage done to children who are sent to boarding school. … More

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

Dip of a Morning

Not sure why. It was a stressful day yesterday with more minor bad news from another project – easy to … More

Friends (Long One)

I suppose we need these times of feeling unhappily squeezed to face some things, we wouldn’t face them if we … More

Processing about of Self Judging

Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More

Transcendental Smell

There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More

Diary entry – a Tuesday

So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More

Asking for Help

4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More

Choosing to Let Life go Well

I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More

Arising Stuff – Recapitulation

Long one today…more of a personal diary entry on the childhood recapitulation and letting go trail. They keep arriving – … More

Loving Ourselves – a reframing

We don’t have to learn how to love ourselves. We already love ourselves. All we have to do is to … More

It’s not all Roses

I often find my mood dipping. It happens quickly. At times it’s when I get carried away in little hostile … More

Having a Beginners Mind

I am experiencing a flow with my psychotherapy clients. I seem to know what to say and when and which … More

Letting the Joy loose

So. I’m still waiting to find out about the big project. And towards the end of yesterday I identified the … More

Uncomfortable realisation…

I’ve told the story many times about how my increasing self compassion and flourishing self worth caused me to let … More

The Terror and the Wonder of being Alive

Bit of a longer one this morning as I sit here drinking tea waiting to leave in an hour to … More

You Get What you Feel you Deserve

And that doesn’t apply to being struck by a random childhood disease and the likes. I have noticed how challenging … More

Reframing the Past

I have written a lot about the less than ideal aspects of my past and their effect on me. Looking … More

More sunshine and more anxiety

Just had a walk up the river with the dogs, yesterday it was through the bluebells in the woods with … More

How to be Happy, even if it Scares you.

And this is one big note-to-self here. I feel fear just writing this post. I’m scared of being happy. There, … More

Easing gently into Self Care

And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More

On Mindfulness, the dangers…

I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More

Don’t like my Mum

Dear Friends, I was not a happy bunny yesterday. My mum who had sprained her ankle and suspected it might … More