This morning for a couple of hours drifting in and out of sleep….when I awake I immediately take my awareness … More
Tag: fear
Incoming
Three incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A client from … More
Thank you Project
I’m compiling a list of companies and service providers and individuals who I’m going to write to and thank. Things … More
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Back to the Present
Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin. … More
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More
Relaxing the Resistance
Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More
Keeping it Together, just
In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More
Be Quiet
‘Be quiet’ the inner guidance voiced clearly as I was walking across the field lost in thinking. ‘Be quiet and … More
Sent the price
I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make … More
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More
Forgiveness
Forgiveness in ACIM states that the ‘sin’ never happened so there’s nothing to forgive. Just an error that wasn’t real … More
The Little Things
The little experiences. The ordinary moments. I notice clearly that if I take care of those with care and love … More
May Reality Guide my every Thought…
…and Truth be the master of my life. Feeling slightly on edge still and thinking perhaps it’s time to turn … More
Follow the Joy
Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More
In the Present with Nature
Enjoyed yesterday out in the park getting more still inside. I set myself a challenge to find beauty in the … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Love to the Inner Child in Us
I enjoy being awake in bed between about 5am to 7am, especially during these dark winter days. Several cups of … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Emerging from Turbulence
I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
The Expanded Self
It was useful to read this Course in Miracles Excerpt earlier, to be reminded of that sense of an expanded … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Taking risks, trusting…
The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Brain Fog
First social outing yesterday in a few weeks and it was most highly enjoyable. We saw the otter again in … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Back Here
My 3 months of this long job is drawing to a close. It has been a joy not to have … More
Short Wise Quote from Rick Hanson
“Our ancestors could make two kinds of mistakes: (1) thinking there was a tiger in the bushes when there wasn’t … More
Fun and Sharing day
Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Dark Night Cont…
What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Learning to Rest with it All 