Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More
Tag: being present
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Smoothness
Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Friday Ponderings
A little follow on from yesterdays musings… “People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Violins in the Park
Contracting up….noticing noticing….And relaxing back into aware space and remembering to breath. A beautiful morning walk and lunch at the … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Active Not Passive
Was listening to James Low talking about Dzogchen on and off all night. I fall asleep listening to these talks. … More
Stillness and Flux
The changing dynamic appearances and arisings of life emerge spontaneously within an alive field of open vibrant spaciousness. If there … More
Feeling Well
I ping pong between dread and anxiety and trust and go with the flow and this blog is the drama … More
Wednesday Diary
After a bumpy start yesterday, seeing a therapy client and feeling useful from that then being outside in nature by … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Ground of Being
Collapsing back into the Ground of Being, the unspeakable unknowable which underlies all manifestation….the great unified field of Rigpa….and much … More
Old Patterns
Checking in early today with some anxiety as I awoke out of a stress producing dream, that must have stirred … More
Sitting into Trust
Awoke slowly and the words of the Gayatri arose again. I am in good company! And I fell asleep last … More
Gayatri Mantra
Still reciting the Gayatri out loud quietly and inside a lot. I haven’t much experience with mantra based meditation but … More
Dark Night Cont…
What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More
Appreciating the Small
Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
A Little Drama
I’ve been submerging back into the teachings of Longchenpa the last couple of days, after weeks of being unable to … More
Learning to Rest with it All 