The physical location of where I feel myself in the body, where I am perceiving the outside world from. When … More
Tag: surrender experiment
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Joy Waiting for Us
A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More
May Reality Guide my every Thought…
…and Truth be the master of my life. Feeling slightly on edge still and thinking perhaps it’s time to turn … More
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
Big Changes in the Air
I woke up having the most lovely kiss with Elon Musk! 😂 The felt that was protecting my summerhouse outside … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More
Feeling Safe
In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Saturday Morning
Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More
No Complaints
The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Allowing Well-being
Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More
Tat savitur varenyam
Have been up the river through the woods for 2 hours, got some sun and lunch. Saw the men and … More
Expanding and Contracting
While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Gratitude Balm
Further in I go, a feeling of falling and of desolation of hope – no less 😂 oh I do … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Aloneness
I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More
“Stop being jerked like a puppet”. Marcus Aurelius
I watch myself being jerked like a puppet by events in my environment that my ego has decided ‘should’ not … More
Facing the Disturbing Stuff
Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More
Monday Mornin’ Rain
Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More
Airy Fairyland
Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More
Peace of the Present
Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More
Being Swept Along
I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More
Processing a Fear Visitor
In came surges of quite intense raw anxiety as I lay expecting to be comfortably drifting in and out of … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Later
Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Letting Go
I’m struggling today, migraine started yesterday and lying on the sofa now. Feeling low energy and mood. Can’t find anything … More
Non-duality, Love and Running a Business
Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More
This Moment is It
The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More
Chat with an Enlightened Person
And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More
Shadow work
Sitting by the river alone. That is indeed where I found myself yesterday. Walked up the road over the lane … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
Hungry Ghosts – Addiction Dropping
This is a little personal congratulations and an acknowledgement of something that is of significance to me, and that is … More
Learning to Rest with it All 