Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Tag: surrender experiment
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More
Feeling Safe
In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Saturday Morning
Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More
No Complaints
The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Allowing Well-being
Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More
Learning to Rest with it All 