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Learning to Rest with it All

“Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come. Let go of what is happening now. Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. Relax, right now, and rest” Tilopa

Tag: surrender experiment

Orientation

The physical location of where I feel myself in the body, where I am perceiving the outside world from. When … More

asking for help, gratitude, holy spirit, inner peace, love, seeking refuge, surrender experiment

The Company I Keep

Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More

Appreciation, being present, building resilience, dzogchen, feeling safe, gratitude, here and now, letting go, mindfulness, present moment awareness, stillness, surrender experiment, thoughts, trusting life

The Joy Waiting for Us

A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More

feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, metaphors of nature, nature walks, surrender experiment, trusting life

May Reality Guide my every Thought…

…and Truth be the master of my life. Feeling slightly on edge still and thinking perhaps it’s time to turn … More

anxiety, fear, letting go, resistance, self soothing, surrender experiment

Accommodating Stress

Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More

anxiety, being present, letting go, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts

Big Changes in the Air

I woke up having the most lovely kiss with Elon Musk! 😂 The felt that was protecting my summerhouse outside … More

enlightenment, letting go, Recovery, surrender experiment, trusting life, upper limit problem

Nothing is Wrong

Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More

Appreciation, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, living abundantly, love, mindfulness, self compassion, surrender experiment, trusting life

Restoration of Love

Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More

childhood damage, letting go, self care, self compassion, surrender experiment

Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

anxiety, building resilience, feeling safe, letting go, love, Recovery, surrender experiment, trusting life

Negative Reactions

A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More

anger, Michael Singer, painful times, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts

Feeling Safe

In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More

Appreciation, being present, building resilience, feeling safe, gratitude, mindfulness, Recovery, self care, self compassion, self love, surrender experiment, trusting life

Reconnecting – List

The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More

Appreciation, being present, building resilience, dzogchen, mindfulness, nature walks, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, thoughts, trusting life

Encounter with Resistance

Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More

being present, feeling safe, gratitude, habits, letting go, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self sabotage, self soothing, surrender experiment, upper limit problem

Saturday Morning

Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More

Appreciation, being present, breathing, building resilience, dzogchen, feeling safe, gratitude, inner peace, letting go, living abundantly, mindfulness, relaxing, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, success, surrender experiment, trusting life

Back to Love

Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More

Appreciation, feeling safe, letting go, love, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Surrendering

It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More

being present, building resilience, feeling safe, letting go, self compassion, self love, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

The Smooth and the Hard times

It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More

mindfulness, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life, worry

Surrendering back into Love

Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More

feeling safe, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment

Some Laughter

Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More

letting go, silence, surrender experiment, thoughts

No Complaints

The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More

building resilience, love, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment

You are held, you are cared for, you are loved

Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More

beauty of nature, building resilience, dzogchen, feeling safe, freedom, letting go, present moment awareness, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

I love, I respect and I like Myself

Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More

Appreciation, being present, building resilience, childhood damage, feeling safe, flourishing, gratitude, inner peace, letting go, Michael Singer, mindfulness, peace, Recovery, refuge, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, success, surrender experiment, trusting life

You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You

Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More

being present, building resilience, covid, feeling safe, love, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, stress, surrender experiment

Pausing and Allowing

Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More

Appreciation, fear, letting go, love, resistance, self care, self soothing, suffering, surrender experiment

Monday Morning Healing

Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More

anxiety, building resilience, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, shame, surrender experiment

Shadow Work

Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More

building resilience, childhood damage, guilt, letting go, resistance, shame, suffering, surrender experiment

What a Great Day

Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More

beauty of nature, being present, building resilience, childhood damage, curiosity, fear, feeling safe, flourishing, gratitude, letting go, living abundantly, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life, unity

Learning to Rest in Awareness

Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More

anxiety, being present, building resilience, feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, mindfulness, self compassion, self soothing, surrender experiment, thoughts, worry

Tantric Sex Dream

Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More

being present, feeling safe, freedom, here and now, Intimacy, letting go, non-duality, surrender experiment, trusting life

Really really Free

Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More

Appreciation, beauty of nature, being present, dzogchen, feeling safe, flourishing, letting go, living abundantly, non-duality, open awareness, present moment awareness, resting in awareness, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Relaxing and Contracting

I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More

being present, feeling safe, letting go, relaxing, self love, surrender experiment, trusting life

Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis

Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More

dzogchen, feeling safe, open awareness, self soothing, surrender experiment

Hello Sad

Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More

being present, mindfulness, solitude, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts

Feeling Supported

Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More

fear, letting go, present moment awareness, relaxing, surrender experiment, thoughts, trusting life

Safe and Home

Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More

Appreciation, dzogchen, gayatri, nature walks, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Allowing Well-being

Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More

gratitude, mindfulness, self soothing, shadow work, surrender experiment, trusting life

Tat savitur varenyam

Have been up the river through the woods for 2 hours, got some sun and lunch. Saw the men and … More

Appreciation, living abundantly, surrender experiment

Expanding and Contracting

While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More

anxiety, letting go, mindfulness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Shadow work by Dream

Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More

anxiety, fear, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Gratitude Balm

Further in I go, a feeling of falling and of desolation of hope – no less 😂 oh I do … More

anxiety, Appreciation, enlightenment, gratitude, letting go, pain, painful times, solitude, suffering, surrender experiment

New Vibe in the Air

Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More

being present, enlightenment, fear, letting go, relaxing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness

Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More

anxiety, Appreciation, building resilience, fear, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, nature walks, self compassion, surrender experiment

Aloneness

I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More

Appreciation, friends, painful times, silence, solitude, stillness, suffering, surrender experiment

“Stop being jerked like a puppet”. Marcus Aurelius

I watch myself being jerked like a puppet by events in my environment that my ego has decided ‘should’ not … More

anger, aversion, emotions, letting go, Michael Singer, misophonia, resistance, shame, surrender experiment

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

anxiety, beauty of nature, childhood damage, disturbing feelings, irritation, letting go, mindfulness, misophonia, nature walks, resistance, stress, surrender experiment

Monday Mornin’ Rain

Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More

habits, letting go, old friends and family, resistance, surrender experiment, trusting life, wellbeing

Airy Fairyland

Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More

Appreciation, being present, dzogchen, letting go, nature walks, surrender experiment, trusting life

Peace of the Present

Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More

being present, dzogchen, gratitude, here and now, inner peace, Intimacy, living abundantly, peace, surrender experiment

Being Swept Along

I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More

fear, feeling safe, freedom, letting go, living abundantly, mindfulness, present moment awareness, self soothing, surrender experiment, thoughts, trusting life, worry

Processing a Fear Visitor

In came surges of quite intense raw anxiety as I lay expecting to be comfortably drifting in and out of … More

anxiety, mindfulness, self compassion, suffering, surrender experiment

Waking up in Heaven

Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More

abundance, being present, enlightenment, feeling safe, letting go, Michael Singer, mindfulness, relaxing, support, surrender experiment, thoughts

Later

Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More

acceptance, being present, business, gratitude, letting go, self care, surrender experiment, trusting life

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

anxiety, building resilience, fear, freedom, nature, nature walks, resistance, self soothing, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Letting Go

I’m struggling today, migraine started yesterday and lying on the sofa now. Feeling low energy and mood. Can’t find anything … More

family relationships on the spiritual path, friends, letting go, old friends and family, resistance, surrender experiment

Non-duality, Love and Running a Business

Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More

abundance, being present, business, business success, dzogchen, freedom, letting go, mindfulness, mindulness, money, non-duality, separation, surrender experiment, trusting life

This Moment is It

The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More

Appreciation, gratitude, here and now, inner peace, letting go, living abundantly, mindfulness, non-duality, open awareness, present moment awareness, relaxing, stillness, success, surrender experiment, trusting life

Chat with an Enlightened Person

And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More

Appreciation, being present, fear, Intimacy, letting go, peace, resistance, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Shadow work

Sitting by the river alone. That is indeed where I found myself yesterday. Walked up the road over the lane … More

being present, dzogchen, fear, letting go, recapitulation, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Trusting Safety

Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More

being present, feeling safe, freedom, letting go, love, mindfulness, non-duality, peace, refuge, self care, self soothing, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life, wellbeing

Hungry Ghosts – Addiction Dropping

This is a little personal congratulations and an acknowledgement of something that is of significance to me, and that is … More

anxiety, freedom, habits, letting go, Recovery, relaxing, self care, surrender experiment, wellbeing

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