Good Cheer

Friend N called me by mistake at 3.30am and it’s now at 5.30 still awake. But happily drinking tea and … More

The Company I Keep

Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More

What was your worry three worries ago?

Asks Dan Siegel We can’t usually remember, they come and go and usually nothing bad happens other than a bunch … More

Choosing what Company to Keep

And this weekend as I was alone, that meant the company I chose to keep online. I chose to spend … More

Refuge of the Present

One of the winter time treasures is getting up around 6am into the cold air, going through to the kitchen, … More

May Reality guide my every Thought

Took a big long space yesterday afternoon and evening away from the demands of the world. A therapy client then … More

5am

I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More

Unnecessary Thinking

Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More

Loving everything…

….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More

“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Cicero

1. My adorable son, my very long term friends and family and lovely dog. My new friends E, R, E … More

Less Afraid of Feelings

Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More

Nothing is Wrong

Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More

Feeling Safe

In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you … More

Reconnecting – List

The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More

Making Life a bit more Fun

Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More

Saturday Morning

Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More

The Smooth and the Hard times

It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More

I love, I respect and I like Myself

Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More

New Day

New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More

Surfing Anxiety

That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More

Learning to Rest in Awareness

Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More

Flow of Experience

Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More

Hello Sad

Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More

Ground of Being

Collapsing back into the Ground of Being, the unspeakable unknowable which underlies all manifestation….the great unified field of Rigpa….and much … More

Allowing Well-being

Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More

Expanding and Contracting

While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More

A Little Drama

I’ve been submerging back into the teachings of Longchenpa the last couple of days, after weeks of being unable to … More

Business Tasks and Procrastination – Part 1

I had an odd realisation that I want to explore in the name of honesty with myself. It is a … More

Day to Day Life

It’s a rainy windy one out there today. Been a very rainy month but the greenery is so lush as … More

Testing back into Unchanging Stillness

I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More

Self Doubt, Self Confidence

No headache today and it’s my birthday. Woohoo. Got dinner tonight with 2 friends at their place. Did the usual … More

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

Another Beautiful day

Homage to those first few breaths of the fresh morning air outside! It is a daily precious miracle experience I … More

Being Swept Along

I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More

Processing a Fear Visitor

In came surges of quite intense raw anxiety as I lay expecting to be comfortably drifting in and out of … More

Waking up in Heaven

Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More

Non-duality, Love and Running a Business

Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More

This Moment is It

The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More

Sunday Morning

The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More

Dropping the concept of Procrastination

Actions seem to happen recently without much effort at all, and I’m curious about how that has gradually started to … More

Being with Uncertainty

The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More

Diary entry – a Tuesday

So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More

Grounding

I write this down after reading a couple of posts on a forum on “Awakening’ on Facebook. It made me … More

Ripples of Anxiety

Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More

Free of ‘Me’

I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More

Just Being

I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More

Trusting Safety

Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More

And Back to Peace again

Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More

Another Round of Processing

The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More

Another Day of Peace

It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More

Calm after the Storm

After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More

Wave of Fear

One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More

Jittery Edge Territory

Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More