This morning for a couple of hours drifting in and out of sleep….when I awake I immediately take my awareness…
Started thinking about Perfectionism
Initial thoughts. What part does it play in my life? Does it contribute to the contracting that is experienced? Perhaps…
Facing the Fears one by one
The fear of relaxing has been coming up a lot, based I think on the untrue belief that if I…
Basking and Being Quiet
Enjoying being in the intensity of the design process yesterday. I have the ground levels on the survey, the interior…
Opening and Allowing
The magical feel good juju that is gathered up by being present is not a reward that the ego/personality wants.…
What is this Wanting Wanting?
“It’s not easy to see a peaceful state of being turning into pain and inner turmoil. All of a sudden,…
Day in the Life
All is well, it’s quiet enough to hear the birdsong, even with the rush hour traffic passing. I’ve been reading…
Incoming
Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A…
The Visit
A garden we built about 5 years ago at a beautiful country house. I was there to view the second…
Into the Now
‘This is all there is’ and ‘this is it’ have been resounding this morning as I find myself somehow sort…
Voidy Peace
Some fearful thoughts returned last night. Woke up a couple of times and it was communicated that I should be…
Feel like a Chat
Solitary day. A therapy client, then a walk to the allotment in the beautiful sunshine where is stayed for over…
Resistance
The fleeting nature of it all, and to be here for, and with, and in all this range of flavours…
Back from the Wilds
To feel oneself in a different environment, and experience how I orientate now. That was all very interesting. Do I…
Sunday Morning Ponderings
In bed here at 6am, warm, comfy, safe and savouring. It’s nearly silent. Odd chirp from a bird. A big…
Moments of Grace…
Washing machine a-spinning, cars a-wooshing past, heating boiler a-humming….and I sit here at the kitchen table feeling the weight of…
Conversation with my Son
Conversation with my son yesterday on WhatsApp about the nature of self. Our first ever on this topic, and which…
Inner Spaciousness
The robovac is humming away in the background. I find myself talking to it when it gets stuck and untangle…
Short Wise Quote – Neville Goddard
‘Go to the end of that which you seek; witness the happy end of it by consciously feeling you express…
Athanor
Period of Grace continues today and all through yesterday. Ease, being present, feeling relaxed and connected to the Force. Very…
Long Wise Quote – Matt Licata
“There is a certain death that occurs as part of the healing process, in the deepening of self-awareness, something that…
Paradise
A long time in nature again, over tree trunks through abundant flowers and all around are layers upon layers of…
Low stress
Want to go over this in more detail. So we had this harmonious few hours of complete clarity and grace…
Allowing Happiness
It’s been a pretty marvellous day. Got N and we went to one of the parks and had a MacDonald’s…
Dissecting a Thought
Slow motion living last couple of days has been beneficial. Cosied into the greenery of the river bank for a…
Short wise Jean Klein Quote
“In welcoming all that is, we live our freedom, openness, directionlessness, desirelessness.” Jean Klein
Me and my state
Such a pleasant evening at my mum’s with Auntie and uncle and his wife and we even sang some old…
Details of the Day
I suppose I’m writing here as I’m a bit perplexed by this energy state, walking to the loo is even…
Deep Fatigue, and some Self Concern
I don’t have a clue what to say today! I’m so bushed, too tired to write even. Maybe this is…
Thank you Project
I’m compiling a list of companies and service providers and individuals who I’m going to write to and thank. Things…
Bumpy Start
I’ve got a crow pal who has befriended me in the park. Recognisable by a few white feathers. As soon…
Wise Quote from Marvin Keilbach
“The best entry point for deep inner work and realization: The experience you’re having right now. This sound, these colors,…
Earthly matters, unearthly art
It was a crowded with people and activity day, and I just took one thing at a time. The therapy…
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature,…
Feeling Blessed
Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with…
Not many Words
‘Be still and know the peace of God’. I awoke with this and repeated it over and over for hours…
Smoothness in the Present
Alert presence moment to moment then broken by thought wandering, then returning to being present. Over and over and over,…
Carried along by Events
Guys have been paid and the heating boiler hums away. Bit of clearance of the air after that foray into…
Old Abandonment Wounds
Which arrived on me this morning from a dream about a new close friend I was so happy to find…
Magic of Nature
The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let…
Little Things
I thank the dog for letting me into her space and tickle her tummy as she lies back so very…
Yesterday’s tomorrow, here we are.
Here and Now. I notice the desire for the familiar. I make toast and enjoy the smell. Old songs too.…
Into the Wilds
I decide to get out of the city and to go exploring, find some wild non human places. So 3…
Yes
Well the client said yes and the project is going ahead. So 4 months of work for the team and…
Little Realisation
I just read “We learn from direct experience only” from Anon on Twitter. And realised that I have the best…
A Passage
Awoke happy and deeply relaxed this morning, stretched out savouring the experience….no thoughts at all, just an awareness of the…
Pigeon Pal
After all that fizzy excitement of intensive work focus yesterday and the day before I had a beautiful grounding walk…
Decision Time!
So I rolled the cosmic dice and sent off the costing for the big project, not knowing whether it’s a…
Back to the Present
Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin.…
Realisation
I had a realisation as I was driving. Funny how this just arrived on my lap as I was in…
Mundane Matters
Intense mental and creative activity. Well at least my mind isn’t getting up to no good. No space to wander…
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am,…
Triggered
I feel the cold of the key as I turn it in the lock. Then the wondrous smell of the…
Absence of Fear
Here I am again in this moment. Always this moment, and everything seems to slow right down and extend out.…
Deciding not to Believe a Thought
Here I am, in this moment. Feeling the surges of energy at they arise and subside. The temptation to collapse…
Pause and Connect
Grounding in the body I feel the body’s weight sitting in the chair, the feet on the ground. I place…
Open to Feelings
I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that…
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This…
Surrendering to This as it Is
“Not having a problem with having a problem is to be carefree Not being uncomfortable about being uncomfortable is comfort…
Changing Vistas
I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the…
Learning to Rest with it All 