Incoming

Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A … More

Thank you Project

I’m compiling a list of companies and service providers and individuals who I’m going to write to and thank. Things … More

Letting go testing

After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More

Smoothness in the Present

Alert presence moment to moment then broken by thought wandering, then returning to being present. Over and over and over, … More

Magic of Nature

The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let … More

Back to the Present

Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin. … More

Contraction and Surrender

Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More

Pause and Connect

Grounding in the body I feel the body’s weight sitting in the chair, the feet on the ground. I place … More

Open to Feelings

I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More

Surrendering to This as it Is

“Not having a problem with having a problem is to be carefree Not being uncomfortable about being uncomfortable is comfort … More

Changing Vistas

I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the … More

More Contrast

I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More

Being with Disturbing Feelings

Found the courage again to allow the disturbing reactive annoyed feelings to be felt. I go into the feelings and … More

Note from the Edge

I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More

Handshake with Feelings

Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More

Tension Building

Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More

Gnarly Knots

8am. I’m amazed at the perfect choreography of it all, how well designed it is for my individual resistances. In … More

Relaxing the Resistance

Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More

Hell Realms – A Welcome

For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More

Sunny Day

A good day surprisingly after that news. Yes I have some fear. Life goes on…other stuff doesn’t seem to become … More

Riding Highs and Lows

The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More

Calm amid the Storm

Yes feeling balanced despite no change in circumstances. Feels like a miracle. Everything is the same as it was that … More

Keeping it Together, just

In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More

Sluggish Start

So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More

Be Quiet

‘Be quiet’ the inner guidance voiced clearly as I was walking across the field lost in thinking. ‘Be quiet and … More

Sent the price

I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make … More

Thank you for Enchantment

Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More

Lowness

Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More

Back in Hell

Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More

Passing through a Grey Cloud

Travelling through a cloud at the moment and not feeling consciously connected with the lightness and peace I know is … More

What was your worry three worries ago?

Asks Dan Siegel We can’t usually remember, they come and go and usually nothing bad happens other than a bunch … More

May Reality Guide my every Thought…

…and Truth be the master of my life. Feeling slightly on edge still and thinking perhaps it’s time to turn … More

Follow the Joy

Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More

Accommodating Stress

Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More

In the shower noticing

In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More

Into the Body

There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More

Returning

Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More

Still in Worry

This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More

Love to the Inner Child in Us

I enjoy being awake in bed between about 5am to 7am, especially during these dark winter days. Several cups of … More

Secret business stresses

I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More

Sunk Mood at the Start

Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More

A dream and meaning

Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More

Too much Happening

Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More

Hello again Anxiety

Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More

Ruffled up a Bit

Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More

Unnecessary Thinking

Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More

Conversing with Fear

Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More

‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’

Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More

Aloneness (in relation to Covid)

Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More

Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

Calming the Nervous System

A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I … More

Imagination and Suffering

A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More

Brain Fog

First social outing yesterday in a few weeks and it was most highly enjoyable. We saw the otter again in … More

Letting Go

I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More

A Wonderful Day

Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More

Monday Morning Healing

Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More

Shame

Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More

Learning to Rest in Awareness

Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More

Today this Helped

I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More

Fearlessness Training

The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More