All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
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Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Dream Help
It’s great to just dream experiences and get the lessons instead of having to live through the actual experience! Though … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Fun and Sharing day
Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Old Patterns
Checking in early today with some anxiety as I awoke out of a stress producing dream, that must have stirred … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Day to Day Life
It’s a rainy windy one out there today. Been a very rainy month but the greenery is so lush as … More
Testing back into Unchanging Stillness
I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Abundance of Miracles
Gosh what a joy and an honour and privilege to witness the abundance and the multiple miracles around in nature. … More
Defending a Position
Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More
The Truth at any Price
A glimpse of sun after all the rain yesterday enticed me out for an early walk this morning which was … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More
Being Swept Along
I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More
What what what, the Mind asks
8am and a sunny morning, had done all the reading, watching and digesting I have bandwidth for already. So now … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Learning to Rest with it All
And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
Sunday Morning
The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More
Being with Uncertainty
The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Everything is fine until I Think!
And try to control things. I start thinking and reflecting, then it feels crowded in here. I lose touch with … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
Calm after the Storm
After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More
A Moment of Grace
I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More
Adversity as a Friend
One of the most exciting discoveries of the last couple of turbulent years for me is that personal adversity can … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
Thinking it into Existence
Continuing with dropping the thoughts and just trusting the Ground, over and over…..though less requirement recently, and it’s more automatic … More
“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“
“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More
Emotions – They are Temporary
Quick one to remind us that it is helpful to keep in mind that emotions are largely temporary. It’s particularly … More
Learning to Rest with it All 