Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A … More
Tag: thoughts
Into the Now
‘This is all there is’ and ‘this is it’ have been resounding this morning as I find myself somehow sort … More
Resistance
The fleeting nature of it all, and to be here for, and with, and in all this range of flavours … More
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Smoothness in the Present
Alert presence moment to moment then broken by thought wandering, then returning to being present. Over and over and over, … More
Back to the Present
Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin. … More
Triggered
I feel the cold of the key as I turn it in the lock. Then the wondrous smell of the … More
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More
Being with Disturbing Feelings
Found the courage again to allow the disturbing reactive annoyed feelings to be felt. I go into the feelings and … More
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More
Relaxing the Resistance
Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More
Riding Highs and Lows
The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More
The Choice
I talk kindly to myself. Here we are in this moment. Breathing in and out from the belly. Notice the … More
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Brain is saying any old shit. Any number of comments on life or about this or that, me and how … More
Body Wisdom
Such a deep communion with my therapy client yesterday morning. (Note to self- watch out for using the clients to … More
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Little Things
The little experiences. The ordinary moments. I notice clearly that if I take care of those with care and love … More
What was your worry three worries ago?
Asks Dan Siegel We can’t usually remember, they come and go and usually nothing bad happens other than a bunch … More
Follow the Joy
Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
Noticing
As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, … More
Refuge of the Present
One of the winter time treasures is getting up around 6am into the cold air, going through to the kitchen, … More
May Reality guide my every Thought
Took a big long space yesterday afternoon and evening away from the demands of the world. A therapy client then … More
Into the Body
There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Dream Help
It’s great to just dream experiences and get the lessons instead of having to live through the actual experience! Though … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Fun and Sharing day
Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Old Patterns
Checking in early today with some anxiety as I awoke out of a stress producing dream, that must have stirred … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Day to Day Life
It’s a rainy windy one out there today. Been a very rainy month but the greenery is so lush as … More
Testing back into Unchanging Stillness
I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Abundance of Miracles
Gosh what a joy and an honour and privilege to witness the abundance and the multiple miracles around in nature. … More
Defending a Position
Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More
The Truth at any Price
A glimpse of sun after all the rain yesterday enticed me out for an early walk this morning which was … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Learning to Rest with it All 