Dare to Wish

To wish for myself and intend the very best that life has to offer. I went to a goals course recently and I noticed that I felt embarrassed and ashamed of actually wanting to improve my life situation. And saying it out loud was even worse!

I am staying with this discomfort and having a rummage around with curiosity to see what is there. I notice beliefs popping up. Such as ‘don’t ask for more than you have, it’s greedy, others have it much harder than you, be grateful for what you have’. ‘Ambition is dangerous, it might lead me away from my values’.

Yet I would still like to live in a beautiful house, with space around it to grow things in a quiet area. I see that it isn’t wrong to want that. And I am very grateful indeed for what I have at this moment at the same time. It is not a sign of ingratitude or greed after all to want to improve my life circumstances, the two are not mutually exclusive.

I wish to be free of being short of money, the worry and anxiety of bills needing paid that I don’t have the money to pay. I have largely eliminated this, though recently due to having to pay back £30k to a client, I’m back there, struggling again.

And aware that I create this situation. I forgive myself and understand that moving into the new territory of love, joy, abundance is terrifying at times, and the pull back towards struggle, conflict and hardship is something I need to watch out for.

So some affirmations.