Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

Facing Reactivity

Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More

Luxury Waking Up

The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More

Smoothness

Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More

Surfacing Core Wounds

I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More

Business Tasks and Procrastination – Part 1

I had an odd realisation that I want to explore in the name of honesty with myself. It is a … More

Honesty Dose

I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More

Actually doing it

Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More

Chat with an Enlightened Person

And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More

Choosing to Let Life go Well

I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More

Stealing Peace

At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More

A Different Today

Every day is so very different. It’s almost like a brand new life starting all over. “How fabulous, happy and … More

Jittery Edge Territory

Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More

A Moment of Grace

I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More

Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks

“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More

Enlightened Mentor

I had my second session last night. I had been making big leaps and bounds out of my shackles into … More

Opening up to and Allowing the Love in

This week I have had several powerful opportunities to receive love. I’ve watched my openness to this, and I expected … More

Imagined fear

In my dream last night I was high up on a ladder. I was 100s of metres up and approaching … More

Facing the fear of not Interpreting

To face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience is a big beautiful ongoing lesson for me. … More

Trying to Avoid Pain

How timid I’ve been about feeling emotional pain. I have spent decades trying to control my environment so that I … More

Hard weather

Literally, it’s been pouring and blowing a gale with only minor breaks for weeks and weeks, unrelenting. What a metaphor … More

What if Joy is Scary

What if you’re not used to it and it’s a more than a bit scary. Often it’s unconsciously scary and … More

Welcoming Joy

I’ve been experiencing stability, relative calmness and waves of happiness recently. Life is going well and I’m experiencing a moment … More

Gratitude – An Unexpected Bonus

Yes cultivating a habit of gratitude makes us feel great, a whole lot less moany, way more focused on what … More

Befriending Resistance

I’m used to viewing the resistance to allowing more joy, love, abundance into in my life in a somewhat pejorative … More

You Get What you Feel you Deserve

And that doesn’t apply to being struck by a random childhood disease and the likes. I have noticed how challenging … More

Allowing more Wellbeing in….

If you are not used to it, is not so straightforward or easy to just let more joy, happiness and … More

My Journey from Unworthy to Worthy

This has been the focus for the last week or two. Realising that as a result of some beliefs I … More

Loving Yourself

Where does the taboo against loving ourselves come from, this belief that it is wrong to have high self esteem? … More

Being in my 50s, making changes, and gently gently

These early to mid 50s – what is happening I often wonder. Why this shake up? And so many seem … More

Overcoming my Limits

This is a MAJOR project I’ve been engaged with for some years. Whenever things are going well in my life, … More

How to be Happy, even if it Scares you.

And this is one big note-to-self here. I feel fear just writing this post. I’m scared of being happy. There, … More

Learning to feel Safe

Over the last 5 years my relationship with myself has improved enormously. I am learning to become a good friend … More

On Success

Thought I’d write a list, a sort of check in to the positive things that are happening. I am experiencing … More

Having an Upturn

It is lovely when the sun shines physically and metaphorically in life, both of which are happening right now in … More

Happy Birthday Me!

Yes it is today. And its a sunny morning, the birds are singing and its spring. So much to be … More

Dare to Wish

To wish for myself and intend the very best that life has to offer. I went to a goals course … More

Coaching Session

I looked up an old coach I had from about 4 years ago, and it was SUCH a positive experience. … More

Listening to Feelings

I am gradually designing my life to be full of what I love to do and what makes me happy, … More

Fulfilment, purpose, belonging, contact, joy, engagement with life

I just started off about to write how lacking I am in these things. Then I realised I actually have … More

Yesterday’s Review

So yesterday brought a new client, a visit to one team, a design of a courtyard garden here, a visit … More

Snakes and Ladders!

Another meltdown! So many things going wrong right now in business. Its like a game of snakes and ladders. Mostly … More

Help is Available

I have two life coaches at the moment, a therapist and an occasional mindfulness coach. What has happened over the … More

What do I want?

I need to write more today, I’ve got stuff to process. Change is on its way, and I need to … More

Feeling Lost

It seems like everything is crumbling around me. I feel fear. Got a client suing me and it’s been a … More

The Attraction of not doing TOO well.

‘TOO well’ What does that mean? It means going near or beyond the inner limit of ‘doing well’ that we … More

Choppy Waters again

Paddling round the edges of hell this morning. I am being mentally assaulted and pounded by desires to turn away … More

Weekend Boozy Train-smash

The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More

Fear of Freedom

Self sabotage has also been described as the ‘regressive pull’. The little scared self wants to return to familiar territory … More

Mr.Self Sabotage – Hello Again

Not by getting drunk and ill with it this time, but I bit a nail right down till it is … More

What is Behind my Self Sabotage?

In response to Tiramit’s question in the comments of a previous post, I will have a closer look at this … More

Mindfulness changes Everything

I was describing to a friend yesterday the changes I experienced when I started practising mindfulness regularly about 5 years … More

Loss, Gratitude and New Beginnings

Happy New Year to you. This morning in bed I thanked my miraculous body for its service to me. I … More

Feeling powerful and vulnerable

I am feeling vulnerable. Feeling alone, not having much direction, and the dog is going to doggy heaven probably this week, or … More

Learning to Value ourselves

“If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite. For man has … More

Do we Get what we Feel we Deserve?

This is my experience of life so far. In the past when my level of self compassion and love was … More

Fear of Success

I awoke this morning with an underlying sense of anxiety. Success is beckoning, peace and prosperity and I have the heebie jeebies! … More