All happening again this morning. 2 therapy clients followed by a possible new construction client right after. Husband has a … More
Author: Susan
Facing it All
“Thank you for being here, it’s good to have your company”, I say to Elsa when she comes over for … More
In the Present with Nature
Enjoyed yesterday out in the park getting more still inside. I set myself a challenge to find beauty in the … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Earthly Matters, business etc
There’s the periodic chirp of a fire alarm whose battery has died in one of the neighbouring flats. I’m surrounded … More
Worry away, just like That!
So the client said yes, even though it was over her budget, and I instantly felt and feel relieved. Like … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Changing Job Visualisation
Thought I’d imagine a happy future scenario, removing some of what I don’t want and replacing with what I do. … More
Love to the Inner Child in Us
I enjoy being awake in bed between about 5am to 7am, especially during these dark winter days. Several cups of … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Edgy & Excited
Beautiful blue sky minus 2 degree morning. In the shower I said a warm hello to all of me, the … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
First Aid time
Having to consciously turn towards that which makes me feel at peace to deal with an underlying anxiety I’m feeling. … More
Sunk Mood at the Start
Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More
Friendly Aliens
Still emerging. Been looking at brain wave states. Gamma (γ)>35 HzConcentration Beta (β)12–35 HzAnxiety dominant, active, external attention, relaxed Alpha … More
Emerging from Turbulence
I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
Too much Happening
Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Just a Normal Day
Yesterday was a fine day, and it went well with the 3 therapy clients I spoke to. I saw the … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Not Separate
To connect there and teach the rest of the inner team that it is safe to relax into it, the … More
Celebrating Achievements
My son Tobie and his gf J are still here and she cooked a wonderful Portuguese duck and rice dinner … More
Hibernation over
I’m gradually emerging from my holiday burrow with a couple of therapy clients then a garden client straight after this … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
The Revolution is an Inside Job
Little to reflect on personally as it is quiet here inside and out in my immediate environment in the depths … More
Big Changes in the Air
I woke up having the most lovely kiss with Elon Musk! 😂 The felt that was protecting my summerhouse outside … More
Living Here
Having left it late in life to buy a place to live I was limited to what I could afford … More
Socialising
Bit of a round up summary of the last few days. The journey continues into the New Year, it’s all … More
Recovery Time
‘Twas a mixed bag our Xmas. And now I’m recovering my marbles back here with some space on my own … More
Different Rhythm
A little bumpy adjusting last night to not having my usual near complete peace and solitude! Young people drinking and … More
Lot Happening
Son arrived home for Xmas, his gf arriving tomorrow, finishing up the construction side this week for the 2 week … More
Pancake Ice
My old pal Anxious Annie is still lingering inside here. It’s very mild, though enough for me to feel less … More
Allotment in the Frost Pics
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
If I had 50% more courage I would…
If I had 50% more courage what would I do differently? It’s an interestingly effective way of noticing where in … More
The land that is nowhere
And the deeper secret of the secret. The land that is nowhere, that is your true home. iChing Don’t look … More
Change
Experiencing increasing confidence at the moment, backed up by a whole lot of encouragement from within. And there’s Garab Dorje … More
well, that fear I’ve talked about on here…
…..for years that became a sort of a plan has just become a reality. News arrived that the next job … More
Doubt Worms
Doubt. Self doubt. I notice when it arrives. It brings a chill with it, and I either recognise it, name … More
Monday light chit chat.
I was feeling a little low earlier. I have a price to do for a risky job, and the uncertainty … More
I want to learn to accept myself – I am learning to accept myself – I accept myself
I’ve been working on the positive self affirmation list and added in more choices after getting some feedback. Some were … More
I want to learn to love you – I’m learning to love you – I love you
This is an adjustment to the original list which is still in development. I want to leant to like you … More
A Beautiful Transcendence
I’m using the word ‘Self’ to mean the expanded us that knows its unity with all and not as a … More
The Expanded Self
It was useful to read this Course in Miracles Excerpt earlier, to be reminded of that sense of an expanded … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Daily Life Just Now
Business mentor meeting started the day and I’m glad to say I had some progress to report and surprised him … More
Face the fear
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous wise person on … More
Practicing making a YouTube Video
Last night at 4am I had such a beautiful little love interaction with myself. I was lying on my back … More
Taking risks, trusting…
The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More
Loving everything…
….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More
“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Cicero
1. My adorable son, my very long term friends and family and lovely dog. My new friends E, R, E … More
Best use of Time
How best to use this time in life? There’s been a lot of resting and deep inner transformative work going … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
Less Afraid of Feelings
Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Powerful and Strong
What a time. A momentous time of balancing. Making sure all the inner characters are being heard. The learning that … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More