A morning at the allotment having another fire with E and a walk in the woods in the glorious sun, … More
Tag: worry
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Shadow work
Sitting by the river alone. That is indeed where I found myself yesterday. Walked up the road over the lane … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
Arising Stuff – Recapitulation
Long one today…more of a personal diary entry on the childhood recapitulation and letting go trail. They keep arriving – … More
Everything is fine until I Think!
And try to control things. I start thinking and reflecting, then it feels crowded in here. I lose touch with … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Stealing Peace
At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
What is Happy
It is definitely a feeling that arises from within for me. I’m pretty sure it’s there all the time, joy … More
Letting go of Anxiety
By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
Testing the Wings
Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More
Taking Refuge
I had 10 enquiries overnight for counselling and have just answered each one. Many will be in the park – … More
The Power of Admitting it
“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More
Surrendering Anxiety
Here we go, right on cue, after tastes of fabulous freedom recently, anxiety provoking thoughts arrive a day or two … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Waking up Happy
More accurately, I woke up NOT feeling scared or anxious at all which allowed my natural state of being to … More
Worry Hijack Dissected
I’ve been communicating about and celebrating my successes here lately so here’s an example of different type of success, a … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“
“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More
Mindfulness and Surprising Spontaneity
Dropping each thought as I notice them and trusting over and over here. Drop and trust drop and trust. Through … More
Useful Adversity
I’m enjoying the daily and hourly beauty of relinquishment and the giving up of what I want to happen. That’s … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Faith, Trust, and Surrender
Still here deep in the folds of the current cycle – my little dark night of the soul raging away, … More
Testing
Yesterday was a pretty meaty test – the ‘demons’ came hard and fast. Demons as in scary thoughts tempting me … More
Just Sitting in Discomfort
Without doing something distracting to make myself feel better or taking something to make it go away or reduce the … More
And this Beauty
Want to share this further reply with you as it’s another one full of beautiful wisdom for getting through the … More
An Unravelling
Had a big fat one this week. Inside expansion and unravelling of illusions being reflected outside. The obstacles are coming … More
Enlightened Mentor
I had my second session last night. I had been making big leaps and bounds out of my shackles into … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
It’s not all Roses
I often find my mood dipping. It happens quickly. At times it’s when I get carried away in little hostile … More
Trying to Avoid Pain
How timid I’ve been about feeling emotional pain. I have spent decades trying to control my environment so that I … More
Inner Dialogue
It started in 1979 when I found a Carlos Castaneda book on my dads bedside table. It said that the … More
Surrender Experiment Day 11
Now firmly in the swing of surrendering when the annoyance from hearing banging and creaking upstairs appears. I notice occasionally … More
Straddling two Worlds
There’s one world in which we help and care for each other. We cooperate freely and giving is not perceived … More
Trusting Yourself
Quite often a strong inner prompting suggests a course of action that is contrary to the one we have made … More
The Terror and the Wonder of being Alive
Bit of a longer one this morning as I sit here drinking tea waiting to leave in an hour to … More
How I stopped biting my Nails after 52 years
In my baby book it was written when my age was just 2, “she bites her nails”. And I have … More
Hello Wellbeing, and welcome :-)
I have experienced a couple of days of heightened wellbeing. I’m consciously allowing it in, and noticing fears and discomforts … More
Welcoming Joy
I’ve been experiencing stability, relative calmness and waves of happiness recently. Life is going well and I’m experiencing a moment … More
Happiness
I’ve been experiencing it the last couple of days. Things are going well. Perhaps more a state of wellbeing than … More
A Desire to Impress others
I noticed a thought that I felt embarrassed to witness this morning. The thought was, ‘I hope she notices how … More
Riding Worry
I ride the potentially fear producing thoughts these days with greater ease than before. This is what I do. ‘Oh … More
The Resistance
It arrives like huge waves charging at me at times. It’s been even more insistent since I have become kinder … More
Changes Made – and more Needed
Mostly business. I’ve now only got one team instead of two which means only one project at a time, half … More
More sunshine and more anxiety
Just had a walk up the river with the dogs, yesterday it was through the bluebells in the woods with … More
Bit of a diary entry this one
Don’t expect anyone to read it as it’s long and a splurging out of troubles. Just need to express how … More
Perspectives
One very important reminder that the recent spate of suicides has given me is that how I feel and how … More
Loving Yourself
Where does the taboo against loving ourselves come from, this belief that it is wrong to have high self esteem? … More
So far so good…
Have gone many many days now in a state of relative stability and wellbeing and so far have not done … More
When it’s Tough in Here
It’s really windy and pouring and it’s going to be an all-day-er. I notice that when anxiety is present, combined … More
New territory, Dread and Courage
I did my first counselling session with a real client last week! It came naturally and went smoothly. I was … More
On Mindfulness, the dangers…
I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More
Finding the still Centre
I’ve been taking some steps to increase my resilience to stress recently. I have had to or suffer! Life has … More
Ups and Downs
And I keep on falling and picking myself up, falling and crashing and then up and out of these slumps … More
Feeling a need for Encouragement
I’m an ENFP and though we have many positive qualities we can be easily discouraged if too many negative experiences … More
Feeling Anxious
A few things going on and I’m feeling disquiet and some anxiety about. Things not going the way I want … More
Lost 10 pounds!
Since the 1st of January by making healthy choices, and next to no wine or any other alcohol. Still having … More
Learning to Rest with it All 