Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
Tag: trusting life
More Calmness
Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Friday Ponderings
A little follow on from yesterdays musings… “People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is … More
Not Scared
‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Stillness and Flux
The changing dynamic appearances and arisings of life emerge spontaneously within an alive field of open vibrant spaciousness. If there … More
Feeling Well
I ping pong between dread and anxiety and trust and go with the flow and this blog is the drama … More
Short Wise Quote from Rick Hanson
“Our ancestors could make two kinds of mistakes: (1) thinking there was a tiger in the bushes when there wasn’t … More
Wednesday Diary
After a bumpy start yesterday, seeing a therapy client and feeling useful from that then being outside in nature by … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Savouring the Calm
Just spent the last 4 hours out in the park wandering around, exploring, lunching, bit of chat and sitting up … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Sitting into Trust
Awoke slowly and the words of the Gayatri arose again. I am in good company! And I fell asleep last … More
Allowing Well-being
Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More
Gayatri Mantra
Still reciting the Gayatri out loud quietly and inside a lot. I haven’t much experience with mantra based meditation but … More
Expanding and Contracting
While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Dissolving Identity
Everything I ever wanted is already here. I was just watching this video by Angelo DiLullo in bed this morning … More
Self Doubt, Self Confidence
No headache today and it’s my birthday. Woohoo. Got dinner tonight with 2 friends at their place. Did the usual … More
The Truth at any Price
A glimpse of sun after all the rain yesterday enticed me out for an early walk this morning which was … More
Monday Mornin’ Rain
Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Airy Fairyland
Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More
Dip of a Morning
Not sure why. It was a stressful day yesterday with more minor bad news from another project – easy to … More
Resistance and Suffering
Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More
Another Beautiful day
Homage to those first few breaths of the fresh morning air outside! It is a daily precious miracle experience I … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More
Being Swept Along
I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More
Later
Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More
Non-duality, Love and Running a Business
Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More
Learning to Rest with it All
And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More
Transcendental Smell
There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
This Moment is It
The dog having her tummy tickled and it occurs that this moment is 100% perfection. It is as good as … More
Chat with an Enlightened Person
And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
What Self?
I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More
Veneration
I don’t know where veneration fits in or if it is the right word. Sounds religious. Or who to write … More
Becoming Everything
Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
A Day in the Life – Wednesday
Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Choosing to Let Life go Well
I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More
Everything is fine until I Think!
And try to control things. I start thinking and reflecting, then it feels crowded in here. I lose touch with … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Savouring
Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More
A Different Today
Every day is so very different. It’s almost like a brand new life starting all over. “How fabulous, happy and … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
Learning to Rest with it All 