There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More
Tag: feeling safe
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Diary entry – a Tuesday
So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More
Becoming Everything
Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
Grounding
I write this down after reading a couple of posts on a forum on “Awakening’ on Facebook. It made me … More
Edge Dwelling
A morning at the allotment having another fire with E and a walk in the woods in the glorious sun, … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Asking for Help
4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
A Day in the Life – Wednesday
Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Savouring
Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More
Stealing Peace
At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More
A Different Today
Every day is so very different. It’s almost like a brand new life starting all over. “How fabulous, happy and … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
What is Happy
It is definitely a feeling that arises from within for me. I’m pretty sure it’s there all the time, joy … More
Bit Frazzled Today
The pattern continues of dropping, surrendering and opening and the sense of all pervading calmness that comes with that. This … More
Another Round of Processing
The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More
Tibetan Dream
I have been falling asleep listening to 1000+ year old Tibetan Dzogchen texts recently, and last night with Vairotsana. These … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Calm after the Storm
After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More
Dropping down into Feelings
A thrill of anticipation this morning as I was getting up. I know how to deal with anxiety at last … More
Letting go of Anxiety
By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
Covid Era Journey
I went from being very scared at first, washing my shopping, my hands, holding my breath when joggers passed me … More
Jittery Edge Territory
Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More
What am I Grateful for about Myself
What am I grateful for about myself? I’m grateful for my appreciation of beauty, my softness, empathy, intelligence, kindness. I … More
A Moment of Grace
I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More
Untangling Obstructions
With the quiet patience of few expectations this last week has been one of resting, simplicity and a chance to … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Adversity as a Friend
One of the most exciting discoveries of the last couple of turbulent years for me is that personal adversity can … More
Sensual
I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
I can’t get no…
That’s not a complaint. Just recording the changing scenery here. Vast impersonal space opens up, inside me and around me. … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Testing the Wings
Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More
Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks
“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
Losing the Doer
I was cleaning out the vacuum earlier. I realised that I was somewhat rushing to finish the experience to get … More
Taking Refuge
I had 10 enquiries overnight for counselling and have just answered each one. Many will be in the park – … More
Surrendering Anxiety
Here we go, right on cue, after tastes of fabulous freedom recently, anxiety provoking thoughts arrive a day or two … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Waking up Happy
More accurately, I woke up NOT feeling scared or anxious at all which allowed my natural state of being to … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
We got This!
I’m feeling optimistic that many more of us are finding the remarkably simple formula for expanding our awareness and increasing … More
“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“
“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More
Sitting Back Inside
Sitting right right back as far as I can for a few seconds and noticing the thoughts that arrive. Then … More
Time for Gratitude
I find it really helpful to remind myself about what is working in my life and also what I feel … More
Useful Adversity
I’m enjoying the daily and hourly beauty of relinquishment and the giving up of what I want to happen. That’s … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Shower Meditation
Today my foray into ‘dark night of the soul’ is on pause (woohoo) and it could just be due to … More
Faith, Trust, and Surrender
Still here deep in the folds of the current cycle – my little dark night of the soul raging away, … More
Learning to Rest with it All 