Becoming Everything

Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More

A Little Lightness

Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More

Grounding

I write this down after reading a couple of posts on a forum on “Awakening’ on Facebook. It made me … More

Edge Dwelling

A morning at the allotment having another fire with E and a walk in the woods in the glorious sun, … More

Connecting with Difficult Feelings

The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More

Asking for Help

4 hours in the sunshine and birdsong at the allotment yesterday. Was good to do some physical work and have … More

Jumpy This Morning

Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More

A Day in the Life – Wednesday

Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More

An Anxiety Visit

This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More

Face the Fear of not Interpreting….

‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More

Free of ‘Me’

I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More

Savouring

Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More

Stealing Peace

At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More

A Different Today

Every day is so very different. It’s almost like a brand new life starting all over. “How fabulous, happy and … More

Just Being

I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More

Trusting Safety

Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More

What is Happy

It is definitely a feeling that arises from within for me. I’m pretty sure it’s there all the time, joy … More

Bit Frazzled Today

The pattern continues of dropping, surrendering and opening and the sense of all pervading calmness that comes with that. This … More

Another Round of Processing

The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More

Tibetan Dream

I have been falling asleep listening to 1000+ year old Tibetan Dzogchen texts recently, and last night with Vairotsana. These … More

And Happy Again

Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More

Another Day of Peace

It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More

Calm after the Storm

After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More

Dropping down into Feelings

A thrill of anticipation this morning as I was getting up. I know how to deal with anxiety at last … More

Letting go of Anxiety

By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More

Wave of Fear

One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More

Covid Era Journey

I went from being very scared at first, washing my shopping, my hands, holding my breath when joggers passed me … More

Jittery Edge Territory

Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More

What am I Grateful for about Myself

What am I grateful for about myself? I’m grateful for my appreciation of beauty, my softness, empathy, intelligence, kindness. I … More

A Moment of Grace

I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More