Noticed this mind wandering in the shower. It was thinking of nothing in particular, just going bla bla bla with…
Acceptable, good enough, lovable.
A walk on the high moors yesterday in this stormy wind and enjoyed being blown about. Unlike me. Lot of…
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at…
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly…
Feeling Safe
In bed as I awoke at 4am I said to myself gently I’m here for you I care about you…
Rainy Monday
Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea,…
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little…
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience…
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained…
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a…
Making Life a bit more Fun
Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my…
Calming the Nervous System
A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I…
Talking to the Resistance
Out on my walk in the woods, I’m continuing my positive self talk. I love you I’m here for you…
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative…
Saturday Morning
Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop…
The Magic of Self Love ❤️
Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list.…
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s…
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy…
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about…
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her…
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I…
Gratitude and Good Times
Was a beautiful and happy day yesterday in the pouring rain. I met a client for a couple of hours…
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the…
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And…
Handing over Objections
Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking…
No Complaints
The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house…
Love Bombs
I’ve been dropping these love bombs on my beleaguered conditioned psyche recently. Think there’s quite a lot of inner adjustments…
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of…
Wise Quote – HH Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit.…
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that…
Thank you Body, thank you Shower…
I look down at my body standing there and I thank it for working so well. Then I thank the…
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the…
I love you, I admire you, I thank you….
Whenever I surfaced from sleep in the early hours, I would say, “I love you Susan”, and then onto several…
Brain Fog
First social outing yesterday in a few weeks and it was most highly enjoyable. We saw the otter again in…
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to…
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour…
Thank you
Looked after despite my fears, time and time again. I doubted and was starting to worry about the lack of…
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test…
Covid Day 10
I had been waking night after night this last week regularly feeling a sort of bliss physically, stretching out and…
Day 9
A good sleep. Less and less coughing now. Still no taste or smell. I just did a test and I…
Covid Day 8
Feeling better physically each day. Calm and still inside too. Not much thought going on. Mind starting to wonder a…
Day 7
Though I’m told it’s really day 6, first day of symptom onset doesn’t count. Awake after another long but broken…
Day 6
Slowly emerging from this land of covid now I think. So tired though still. Sleeps are very disturbed, and no…
Day 5
Think the worst has passed now. Sore throat, earache, headache have peaked and are much milder. Still coughing, and very…
Day 4
This is another moan, so probably not that interesting. Got up at 9am thinking I could make an effort to…
Day 3
Like being in a little personal crazy land just now where nothing much is normal. So much sleeping, no walks,…
Still unwell with Covid
Strangely comfortable all night though, I took a pain killer which helped the back pain. I appreciated just being in…
Bit of a Crash
Not feeling well at all now. Was a bit iffy in the morning but thought it was breathing in the…
A Wonderful Day
Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month…
Work Change in the Air
I can sort of intuit where the this lack of work for the men situation might be going. If no…
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it.…
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights,…
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a…
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I…
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of…
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush…
This and that
This client had started talking about a huge problem we have neglected to deal with properly, hinting at suing me,…
Looking at my Reactivity
Looking at where there’s reactiveness inside to events or people recently. – I got an email response from a client…
Disturbing Dream
Woke up late and a bit disturbed in the feelings. Such a long intense real dream with M. He’s the…
A Nice Day
Was another distress free day. Happy in a calm way, as in the lack of thoughts or reactions bothering me.…
Learning to Rest with it All 