Here I am, in this moment. Feeling the surges of energy at they arise and subside. The temptation to collapse…
Pause and Connect
Grounding in the body I feel the body’s weight sitting in the chair, the feet on the ground. I place…
Open to Feelings
I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that…
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This…
Surrendering to This as it Is
“Not having a problem with having a problem is to be carefree Not being uncomfortable about being uncomfortable is comfort…
Changing Vistas
I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the…
Intimacy with the Now
The single act of choosing to be in the present moment has profound effects. I notice a big resistance to…
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a…
Being with Disturbing Feelings
Found the courage again to allow the disturbing reactive annoyed feelings to be felt. I go into the feelings and…
Strong Healing Medicine
The will to remain conscious is strong just now. Thank you very much to the pain of imagined adversity for…
Childlike
I’m like a child with a delicate flower today. Mindful that precious peace has been restored for now and aware…
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’.…
Not Freaking Out
Not exactly delighted but not so overwhelmed as earlier. Intensively doing the handshake with feelings practice which is amazing. It…
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that…
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be…
Gnarly Knots
8am. I’m amazed at the perfect choreography of it all, how well designed it is for my individual resistances. In…
Relaxing the Resistance
Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked…
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come…
Sunny Day
A good day surprisingly after that news. Yes I have some fear. Life goes on…other stuff doesn’t seem to become…
Riding Highs and Lows
The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s…
Short Wise Quote – Ikko Narasaki
The mind is constantly trying to figure out what page it’s on in the story of itself. Close the book.…
The Choice
I talk kindly to myself. Here we are in this moment. Breathing in and out from the belly. Notice the…
Calm amid the Storm
Yes feeling balanced despite no change in circumstances. Feels like a miracle. Everything is the same as it was that…
Contrasts
Long one. Very. Need to talk it through. Could do with some nicely numbing drugs right now but here I…
Crossroads
I’m in a bit of shock that the next job is not going ahead and this feels like something big.…
Keeping it Together, just
In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the…
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive…
Wise Quote – Sasha Chapin
“Find ways to bring more and more of yourself into loving awareness. Every detail of your being. The ones you…
Be Quiet
‘Be quiet’ the inner guidance voiced clearly as I was walking across the field lost in thinking. ‘Be quiet and…
Sent the price
I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make…
Fear, healthy tools and meringue
Making the best of a not a very happy period just now. The fear tempting thoughts are still coming at…
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around.…
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I…
Sadness, anger, fear….and allowing
Today it’s raining and I’m still processing a dream which brought up old feelings of sadness and disappointed hopes. The…
Quick Dream, bit of Shadow Work
Tender moments in a dream about M of defences laid down and in its place mutual affection that came easily.…
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the…
My Journey with Barry
Not very interesting reading about other people dreams and this is kind of a sad post, but I want to…
Trucking Steadily Along
What a full day yesterday. New cleaners arrived and I showed them around. Not sure exactly what they did while…
Starving thoughts of Attention
Brain is saying any old shit. Any number of comments on life or about this or that, me and how…
Just so
Long sleep and no pharmaceuticals required. Good. Though now on two types of antibiotics though to remove the tooth infection.…
I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….
Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change…
Highs, and are they even Lows
Kind of knocked sideways or something with this tooth pain going on still. Though I don’t think anything about it…
Body Wisdom
Such a deep communion with my therapy client yesterday morning. (Note to self- watch out for using the clients to…
Allowing
Dropping down out of the head area and orienting from the heart/chest/midriff/tummy area of the body is remaining with me.…
Relationship with Pain
Lay and lay for an extended time in bed just being and meditating and watching thoughts as they arrived and…
Orientation
The physical location of where I feel myself in the body, where I am perceiving the outside world from. When…
Happy Arisings
Submerging intensely into a state of deep appreciation of this beautiful animal I share my life with….treasuring and savouring each…
Good Cheer
Friend N called me by mistake at 3.30am and it’s now at 5.30 still awake. But happily drinking tea and…
Forgiveness
Forgiveness in ACIM states that the ‘sin’ never happened so there’s nothing to forgive. Just an error that wasn’t real…
Back to ACIM
Deep in the original version of a Course in Miracles last night and this morning in bed and still now…
Courage
I sincerely asked for help last night, and help came. It arrived in the form of an encouraging and empowering…
Passing through a Grey Cloud
Travelling through a cloud at the moment and not feeling consciously connected with the lightness and peace I know is…
Little Changes
Another 8 hour sleep and out cold before 9pm. I fell asleep to a lovely new meditation by Jayasara. Today…
A Little Drama
After an hour, I decided to set off home and turned up the steep wooded hill. Whack! A big stick…
Covid Recollections
A fine trip yesterday across country after a lovely session with a therapy client. Job is going well, men and…
Wise Quote – Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
“Thinking is the natural activity of the mind. Meditation is not about stopping your thoughts. Meditation is simply a process…
Brighter
Clear skies and a heavy frost outside this morning and the passing cars are mostly white. I’ve got a therapy…
Bit of a Moan
8.30am. I had another unexpectedly nice day yesterday, full of variety and purpose and meaning. The 2 therapy clients in…
‘The courage to dance with the tension of the moment’
Dishwasher, central heating boiler and washing machine humming away in the background. I’m feeling supported by the machines and by…
Unexpected Bonus
I received a call yesterday from the local housing department (who own the flat above me) to tell me that…
Learning to Rest with it All 