Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
Category: worry
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Dark Night Cont…
What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More
Appreciating the Small
Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Transcendental Smell
There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
Covid Era Journey
I went from being very scared at first, washing my shopping, my hands, holding my breath when joggers passed me … More
Jittery Edge Territory
Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
The Power of Admitting it
“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More
Surrendering Anxiety
Here we go, right on cue, after tastes of fabulous freedom recently, anxiety provoking thoughts arrive a day or two … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Waking up Happy
More accurately, I woke up NOT feeling scared or anxious at all which allowed my natural state of being to … More
Worry Hijack Dissected
I’ve been communicating about and celebrating my successes here lately so here’s an example of different type of success, a … More
Thinking it into Existence
Continuing with dropping the thoughts and just trusting the Ground, over and over…..though less requirement recently, and it’s more automatic … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Just Sitting in Discomfort
Without doing something distracting to make myself feel better or taking something to make it go away or reduce the … More
Numb
I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Inner Dialogue
It started in 1979 when I found a Carlos Castaneda book on my dads bedside table. It said that the … More
Surrender Experiment Day 11
Now firmly in the swing of surrendering when the annoyance from hearing banging and creaking upstairs appears. I notice occasionally … More
Kindness all Round
As individuals, as a city, a country and a world – not knowing how this Covid 19 is going to … More
Maintaining life during Covid
On this rollercoaster of acclimatising to Covid I’m experiencing very vivid intense dreams, leaving me baffled and emotionally hungover in … More
The Terror and the Wonder of being Alive
Bit of a longer one this morning as I sit here drinking tea waiting to leave in an hour to … More
How I stopped biting my Nails after 52 years
In my baby book it was written when my age was just 2, “she bites her nails”. And I have … More
Learning to Rest with it All 