Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Category: upper limit problem
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surfacing Core Wounds
I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Business Tasks and Procrastination – Part 1
I had an odd realisation that I want to explore in the name of honesty with myself. It is a … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Choosing to Let Life go Well
I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More
A Different Today
Every day is so very different. It’s almost like a brand new life starting all over. “How fabulous, happy and … More
Jittery Edge Territory
Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More
Breaking free of the Social Shackles Continued
I have been exploring how we can be held back by others and motivated to hold ourselves back by our … More
Untangling Obstructions
With the quiet patience of few expectations this last week has been one of resting, simplicity and a chance to … More
Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks
“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More
Loving Ourselves – a reframing
We don’t have to learn how to love ourselves. We already love ourselves. All we have to do is to … More
Opening up to and Allowing the Love in
This week I have had several powerful opportunities to receive love. I’ve watched my openness to this, and I expected … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Sitting with Successes
And after the initial feeling of the win, now sitting less than comfortably. I was going to wait till I’d … More
Hard weather
Literally, it’s been pouring and blowing a gale with only minor breaks for weeks and weeks, unrelenting. What a metaphor … More
You Get What you Feel you Deserve
And that doesn’t apply to being struck by a random childhood disease and the likes. I have noticed how challenging … More
Well and Happy!
After so many many months of daily managing of anxiety, it has subsided for the last few weeks. And wow … More
My Journey from Unworthy to Worthy
This has been the focus for the last week or two. Realising that as a result of some beliefs I … More
Being in my 50s, making changes, and gently gently
These early to mid 50s – what is happening I often wonder. Why this shake up? And so many seem … More
Overcoming my Limits
This is a MAJOR project I’ve been engaged with for some years. Whenever things are going well in my life, … More
How to be Happy, even if it Scares you.
And this is one big note-to-self here. I feel fear just writing this post. I’m scared of being happy. There, … More
On Success
Thought I’d write a list, a sort of check in to the positive things that are happening. I am experiencing … More
Fulfilment, purpose, belonging, contact, joy, engagement with life
I just started off about to write how lacking I am in these things. Then I realised I actually have … More
Success and Childhood
I had a session with the therapist/coach last night. The subject was around allowing more success in, success in all … More
The Attraction of not doing TOO well.
‘TOO well’ What does that mean? It means going near or beyond the inner limit of ‘doing well’ that we … More
Choppy Waters again
Paddling round the edges of hell this morning. I am being mentally assaulted and pounded by desires to turn away … More
Mr.Self Sabotage – Hello Again
Not by getting drunk and ill with it this time, but I bit a nail right down till it is … More
What is Behind my Self Sabotage?
In response to Tiramit’s question in the comments of a previous post, I will have a closer look at this … More
Kickback
After that marvellous breakthrough, then came the self sabotage last night. Yesterday I was still highly enjoying an anxiety free, … More
Towards Feeling Safe
A whole weekend lies ahead and I have just about nothing planned, other than enjoying freedom and spending quality time. … More
Do we Get what we Feel we Deserve?
This is my experience of life so far. In the past when my level of self compassion and love was … More
Easing into Feeling Alright
Do you want to feel alright? This powerful question I read the other day, and it didnt take long for … More
Making Space for The Way
“For things to reveal themselves to us, we need to be ready to abandon our views about them“. Thich Nhat … More
‘I Wish I had let Myself Be Happier’
This was one of the top 5 regrets reported by those on their deathbeds on a list recently being passed around … More
Standing up for Ourselves
I am noticing with some curiosity how my changing relationship with myself is causing some immediate changes in my relationships with … More
Self Love Vs Self Sabotage
These two are having a juicy war inside me at the moment. The more I love myself and open to allowing … More
Doing some work on Self Sabotage
This week I have been right in it and now it is time to gather up the beliefs that have … More
Learning to Rest with it All 