The fleeting nature of it all, and to be here for, and with, and in all this range of flavours … More
Category: surrender experiment
Feeling Blessed
Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with … More
Not many Words
‘Be still and know the peace of God’. I awoke with this and repeated it over and over for hours … More
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More
Surrendering to This as it Is
“Not having a problem with having a problem is to be carefree Not being uncomfortable about being uncomfortable is comfort … More
Changing Vistas
I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the … More
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
The Choice
I talk kindly to myself. Here we are in this moment. Breathing in and out from the belly. Notice the … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Negative Reactions
A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
The Magic of Self Love ❤️
Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list. … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More
Some Laughter
Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More
Handing over Objections
Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
More Calmness
Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Not Scared
‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Sitting into Trust
Awoke slowly and the words of the Gayatri arose again. I am in good company! And I fell asleep last … More
Allowing Well-being
Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More
Gayatri Mantra
Still reciting the Gayatri out loud quietly and inside a lot. I haven’t much experience with mantra based meditation but … More
Dark Night Cont…
What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More
Appreciating the Small
Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More
Gratitude Balm
Further in I go, a feeling of falling and of desolation of hope – no less 😂 oh I do … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Being Open and Feeling Low
Being somewhat unravelled, undone and deconstructed just now, I’m not shining my usual note. There’s a low mood visiting and … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Dissolving Identity
Everything I ever wanted is already here. I was just watching this video by Angelo DiLullo in bed this morning … More
Testing back into Unchanging Stillness
I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More
Aloneness
I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More
Resting and Adjusting
Was able to articulate a little better what is being experienced when I was with M. Something about his energy … More
Self Doubt, Self Confidence
No headache today and it’s my birthday. Woohoo. Got dinner tonight with 2 friends at their place. Did the usual … More
Defending a Position
Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More
Low Mood Morning
The colourful visual zigzags started yesterday signalling the start of a migraine and then it arrived. Mildly painful only but … More
Facing the Disturbing Stuff
Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Airy Fairyland
Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More
Peace of the Present
Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Later
Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Non-duality, Love and Running a Business
Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More
Learning to Rest with it All
And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More
Learning to Rest with it All 