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Learning to Rest with it All

“Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come. Let go of what is happening now. Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. Relax, right now, and rest” Tilopa

Category: surrender experiment

Conversing with Fear

Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More

anxiety, fear, feeling safe, letting go, self care, self compassion, self soothing, trusting life, worry

Moments of Grace

The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More

feeling safe, gratitude, peace, refuge, self compassion, self soothing, trusting life, wellbeing, worry

Nothing is Wrong

Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More

Appreciation, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, living abundantly, love, mindfulness, self compassion, surrender experiment, trusting life

Restoration of Love

Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More

childhood damage, letting go, self care, self compassion, surrender experiment

Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

anxiety, building resilience, feeling safe, letting go, love, Recovery, surrender experiment, trusting life

Negative Reactions

A beautiful time waking up in till I realised that I need to intervene with work not being done correctly … More

anger, Michael Singer, painful times, resistance, suffering, surrender experiment, thoughts

Encounter with Resistance

Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More

being present, feeling safe, gratitude, habits, letting go, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self sabotage, self soothing, surrender experiment, upper limit problem

The Magic of Self Love ❤️

Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list. … More

being present, feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing

Back to Love

Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More

Appreciation, feeling safe, letting go, love, resistance, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Updated Positive Self Talk list

I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More

feeling safe, flourishing, gratitude, inner peace, peace, relaxing, self compassion, self love, silence, trusting life

Surrendering back into Love

Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More

feeling safe, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment

Some Laughter

Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More

letting go, silence, surrender experiment, thoughts

Handing over Objections

Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More

acceptance, being present, letting go, resistance, self care, self compassion, self soothing, suffering

You are held, you are cared for, you are loved

Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More

beauty of nature, building resilience, dzogchen, feeling safe, freedom, letting go, present moment awareness, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, surrender experiment, trusting life

I love, I respect and I like Myself

Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More

Appreciation, being present, building resilience, childhood damage, feeling safe, flourishing, gratitude, inner peace, letting go, Michael Singer, mindfulness, peace, Recovery, refuge, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, success, surrender experiment, trusting life

You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You

Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More

being present, building resilience, covid, feeling safe, love, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, stress, surrender experiment

Letting Go

I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More

anxiety, Appreciation, being present, fear, feeling safe, letting go, self compassion, trusting life, worry

Monday Morning Healing

Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More

anxiety, building resilience, self care, self compassion, self love, self soothing, shame, surrender experiment

Learning to Rest in Awareness

Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More

anxiety, being present, building resilience, feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, mindfulness, self compassion, self soothing, surrender experiment, thoughts, worry

More Calmness

Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More

feeling safe, freedom, here and now, inner peace, letting go, stillness, trusting life, wellbeing

Not Two

The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More

being present, feeling safe, inner peace, letting go, relaxing, stillness, trusting life

Really really Free

Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More

Appreciation, beauty of nature, being present, dzogchen, feeling safe, flourishing, letting go, living abundantly, non-duality, open awareness, present moment awareness, resting in awareness, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Navigating Feelings and Thoughts

Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More

Not Scared

‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More

business, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, trusting life

Enlightenment, what is it?

Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More

anxiety, being present, dzogchen, enlightenment, flourishing, letting go, nature walks, non-duality, resting in awareness, separation, stillness, trusting life

Evening Thanks

Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More

acceptance, Appreciation, breathing, gratitude, inner peace, living abundantly, love, mindulness, self soothing, thanks, trusting life, wellbeing

Sitting into Trust

Awoke slowly and the words of the Gayatri arose again. I am in good company! And I fell asleep last … More

being present, gratitude, trusting life

Allowing Well-being

Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More

gratitude, mindfulness, self soothing, shadow work, surrender experiment, trusting life

Gayatri Mantra

Still reciting the Gayatri out loud quietly and inside a lot. I haven’t much experience with mantra based meditation but … More

Appreciation, being present, breathing, letting go, relaxing, trusting life

Dark Night Cont…

What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More

anxiety, asking for help, being present, dark night, fear, letting go, pain

Appreciating the Small

Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More

being present, building resilience, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, self soothing

Gratitude Balm

Further in I go, a feeling of falling and of desolation of hope – no less 😂 oh I do … More

anxiety, Appreciation, enlightenment, gratitude, letting go, pain, painful times, solitude, suffering, surrender experiment

New Vibe in the Air

Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More

being present, enlightenment, fear, letting go, relaxing, surrender experiment, trusting life

Being Open and Feeling Low

Being somewhat unravelled, undone and deconstructed just now, I’m not shining my usual note. There’s a low mood visiting and … More

compassion, fear, honesty, loneliness, solitude, suffering

Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness

Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More

anxiety, Appreciation, building resilience, fear, feeling safe, gratitude, letting go, nature walks, self compassion, surrender experiment

Dissolving Identity

Everything I ever wanted is already here. I was just watching this video by Angelo DiLullo in bed this morning … More

being present, inner peace, letting go, resistance, trusting life

Testing back into Unchanging Stillness

I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More

beauty of nature, building resilience, letting go, love, mindfulness, nature walks, present moment awareness, resistance, self compassion, self soothing, thoughts

Aloneness

I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More

Appreciation, friends, painful times, silence, solitude, stillness, suffering, surrender experiment

Resting and Adjusting

Was able to articulate a little better what is being experienced when I was with M. Something about his energy … More

being present, letting go, resting in awareness

Self Doubt, Self Confidence

No headache today and it’s my birthday. Woohoo. Got dinner tonight with 2 friends at their place. Did the usual … More

business success, gratitude, mindfulness, money, Money Issues, success, thriving, trusting life

Defending a Position

Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More

anxiety, aversion, letting go, resistance, suffering, thoughts

Low Mood Morning

The colourful visual zigzags started yesterday signalling the start of a migraine and then it arrived. Mildly painful only but … More

anger, asking for help, building resilience, gratitude, letting go, misophonia, self compassion, suffering

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

anxiety, beauty of nature, childhood damage, disturbing feelings, irritation, letting go, mindfulness, misophonia, nature walks, resistance, stress, surrender experiment

Just this Moment

The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More

anxiety, being present, dzogchen, fear, feeling safe, here and now, letting go, resistance, self soothing, thoughts, trusting life, worry

Airy Fairyland

Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More

Appreciation, being present, dzogchen, letting go, nature walks, surrender experiment, trusting life

Peace of the Present

Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More

being present, dzogchen, gratitude, here and now, inner peace, Intimacy, living abundantly, peace, surrender experiment

Waking up in Heaven

Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More

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Later

Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More

acceptance, being present, business, gratitude, letting go, self care, surrender experiment, trusting life

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

anxiety, building resilience, fear, freedom, nature, nature walks, resistance, self soothing, stress, suffering, surrender experiment, worry

Non-duality, Love and Running a Business

Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More

abundance, being present, business, business success, dzogchen, freedom, letting go, mindfulness, mindulness, money, non-duality, separation, surrender experiment, trusting life

Learning to Rest with it All

And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More

anxiety, aversion, being present, fear, inner peace, letting go, nature walks, stillness, thoughts, trusting life

Actually doing it

Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More

anxiety, Appreciation, enlightenment, feeling safe, flourishing, freedom, gratitude, Intimacy, letting go, non-duality, resistance, self care, success, thoughts, trusting life

Chat with an Enlightened Person

And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More

Appreciation, being present, fear, Intimacy, letting go, peace, resistance, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life

Dropping the concept of Procrastination

Actions seem to happen recently without much effort at all, and I’m curious about how that has gradually started to … More

being present, mindfulness, worry

Ego Games

Sunshine outside, and listening to Nisargadatta being read, and it is sublime. This one will be on repeat over and … More

being present, ego, honesty, letting go, non-duality, resistance, ugly thoughts

What Self?

I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More

being present, dzogchen, here and now, inner peace, letting go, present moment awareness, stillness, trusting life

Choosing to Let Life go Well

I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More

Appreciation, asking for help, being present, childhood damage, fear of success, flourishing, money fears, self compassion, self love, self soothing, thriving, trusting life, upper limit problem

Free of ‘Me’

I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More

being present, dzogchen, feeling safe, flourishing, here and now, inner peace, letting go, mindfulness, Recovery, relaxing, stillness, trusting life

Trusting Safety

Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More

being present, feeling safe, freedom, letting go, love, mindfulness, non-duality, peace, refuge, self care, self soothing, stillness, surrender experiment, trusting life, wellbeing

And Happy Again

Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More

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