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Category: stress
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Too much Happening
Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Testing testing !
Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More
Supplements, minerals and drugs
The only time I felt at ease yesterday was when I found a spot in the long grass with the … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
Everything is fine until I Think!
And try to control things. I start thinking and reflecting, then it feels crowded in here. I lose touch with … More
Bit Frazzled Today
The pattern continues of dropping, surrendering and opening and the sense of all pervading calmness that comes with that. This … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
An Unravelling
Had a big fat one this week. Inside expansion and unravelling of illusions being reflected outside. The obstacles are coming … More
Numb
I experienced a long sobbing session yesterday. The tears then came and went through the day. Partly also a release … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Kindness all Round
As individuals, as a city, a country and a world – not knowing how this Covid 19 is going to … More
Sticky thoughts This Morning
The thoughts are random and fearful this morning. Bombarded from many angles of threat and suggestions to be fearful. You … More
Daily Vicissitudes
Was awoken prematurely mid dream by the dog needing out, a brain foggy start. I remembered the dream and in … More
What’s with all the Anxiety?
I’m noticing so many are reporting feeling anxiety and I’m wondering if perhaps we have actually always felt anxious and … More
Clearing Clutter helps!
I’ve had a paperwork pile which has been growing in front of my eyes here on the table since May. … More
Burnout no More!
Time to recover my sanity, by reducing the stress that has led to this slow descent into a state of … More
Bit of a diary entry this one
Don’t expect anyone to read it as it’s long and a splurging out of troubles. Just need to express how … More
Easing gently into Self Care
And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More
On Mindfulness, the dangers…
I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More
Finding the still Centre
I’ve been taking some steps to increase my resilience to stress recently. I have had to or suffer! Life has … More
Don’t like my Mum
Dear Friends, I was not a happy bunny yesterday. My mum who had sprained her ankle and suspected it might … More
Business Overwhelm Today
Giving myself permission to have a long moany analyses of what I like and dont like about running a business. … More
Snakes and Ladders!
Another meltdown! So many things going wrong right now in business. Its like a game of snakes and ladders. Mostly … More
So I sacked the Guy
The build up to this for me was so very stressful. I really dislike hurting people. But as the custodian … More
Saturday anxiety flavours
In bed of course, the weekly treat to loll around with no need to do anything or go anywhere. My … More
Hello Little Fear…
Come on in and let’s have tea…I will kindly listen to your concerns. For a short while only though. You … More
Recovery Day Two
How can I be kind and nurture myself today? Another long lie starts the day, cosy inside looking out at … More
Being Honest about Fear
I am so tempted to just come right out with the anxiety I experience in public, on social media such … More
Today’s recovery Plan
I’m aware I’m not out of the woods yet, and vulnerable to descent into gloom and anxiety. So for a … More
A Better Day
Lays night I skipped the Mindfulness therapy Skype call and postponed till tonight. Instead I accepted an invitation form my … More
Still struggling!
Woke up in intense anxiety at 4.30am. Spent several hours listening to Tara Brach talks, this one in particular is … More
Travel to the wild coast
A bit of geographical movement helped to shift the mood last week. I took myself and a friend’s delightful 16 … More
Soothing and Inner Demons
And how easily invited in hell is. There I was lying, slipping slowly into awakeness at 6am and touched by the … More
Today’s Process, Resting
‘Resting’ rather than ‘doing’ or ‘trying’ or ‘striving’ to adjust or replace or avoid or cling onto or get rid … More
Anxiety came back – Radical Action required!
And I spent days experiencing some level of fear – of nothing in particular, well not that I could identify. … More
A Clearing in the Clouds
I awoke today early, and much to my amazement, after days of seemingly uncontrollable anxiety provoking thoughts, I seemed to … More
Undoing the grip of Anxiety
I have been feeling a lot of anxiety recently so got a bit of a moan today here for you! I … More
Grappling
and grappling with such unexpectedly strong feelings as they surge up in response to this week’s vote in the US. Shock, horror, … More
I forgive myself
I used to really beat myself up for all kinds of reasons. Not being ‘good’ or ‘virtuous’ enough, for making … More
The more I trust, the more life works out
So after my fear was screaming at me yesterday about socialising during work hours, I did in fact end up … More
Not Rushing and having More Time
I used to permanently rush around. I was younger I had the energy for it and it was the way … More
The Wild River of My Mind
“To stay present in everyday life, it helps to be deeply rooted within yourself; otherwise, the mind, which has incredible … More
Learning to Rest with it All 