I’ve got a crow pal who has befriended me in the park. Recognisable by a few white feathers. As soon … More
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Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
A Wonderful Day
Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Processing about of Self Judging
Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
What am I Grateful for about Myself
What am I grateful for about myself? I’m grateful for my appreciation of beauty, my softness, empathy, intelligence, kindness. I … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Ahh…Soaring, Welcome back
There’s been a fair few days of soaring over the last couple of weeks. I overcame a lifelong fear of … More
Normalising vulnerability
Watching therapists share with each other on the CBT course helped to further normalise talking about subjects that would usually … More
Befriending Resistance
I’m used to viewing the resistance to allowing more joy, love, abundance into in my life in a somewhat pejorative … More
No Alcohol Experiment – Day 9
As I mentioned in my last post, I’m experimenting with cutting out alcohol for a while to see what happens … More
Recovery from Burnout
I think it may take a while to turn my life around and I’m content with these small steps. It … More
When the Stress Subsides…
Perception changes, and new doors open to possibilities and these seem to Just magically appear. Nothing in particular is appearing … More
Self Love Club Update
I attended last night and it was intense. The theme was self acceptance. She got us to write down some … More
Wonder Woman Club Review
I spent the afternoon at a woman’s business club meeting, the Wonder Woman Club. How I enjoyed myself there meeting … More
Awoke feeling stress
How is that bloody possible after 2 chilled days and a great sleep?! not sure why at all. Woke up … More
Today’s recovery Plan
I’m aware I’m not out of the woods yet, and vulnerable to descent into gloom and anxiety. So for a … More
Still struggling!
Woke up in intense anxiety at 4.30am. Spent several hours listening to Tara Brach talks, this one in particular is … More
Today’s Process, Resting
‘Resting’ rather than ‘doing’ or ‘trying’ or ‘striving’ to adjust or replace or avoid or cling onto or get rid … More
Sameness
Getting to accept this stability, calmness, quiet, aloneness. Drama will appear no doubt, but for now it is lacking though … More
Weekend Boozy Train-smash
The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More
Mr.Self Sabotage – Hello Again
Not by getting drunk and ill with it this time, but I bit a nail right down till it is … More
Kickback
After that marvellous breakthrough, then came the self sabotage last night. Yesterday I was still highly enjoying an anxiety free, … More
A Clearing in the Clouds
I awoke today early, and much to my amazement, after days of seemingly uncontrollable anxiety provoking thoughts, I seemed to … More
My needs vs another’s needs
I’ve had some more inner wrangling today. I have a situation in my hands which has given me a conflict … More
I forgive myself
I used to really beat myself up for all kinds of reasons. Not being ‘good’ or ‘virtuous’ enough, for making … More
Relief is Possible woohoo!
I love experiencing relief from my self created angst and misery. I am learning the art of accepting what is happening, … More
Began the day with a self compassion session
A guided meditation by Christopher Germer. A simple self-care exercise and a soothing way to begin a day. ‘May I … More
Learning to Rest with it All 