Facing Reactivity

Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More

Encounter with Resistance

Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More

Saturday Morning

Blissful spacious love, I surrender into you. I give myself full permission to relax further and further into a backdrop … More

Back to Love

Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More

Hello again Sadness and Anxiety

How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More

Privileged Abandonment

I was on a course all day yesterday about the damage done to children who are sent to boarding school. … More

Stealing Peace

At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More

Breaking Free of the Social Shackles

I’m still thinking about how we overall as a society keep each other (and ourselves) retarded and held back in … More

What if Joy is Scary

What if you’re not used to it and it’s a more than a bit scary. Often it’s unconsciously scary and … More

Hello Wellbeing, and welcome :-)

I have experienced a couple of days of heightened wellbeing. I’m consciously allowing it in, and noticing fears and discomforts … More

Being Gentle

And continuing to celebrate the small victories. Small steps every day that are beneficial and healthy to me and to … More

Allowing more Wellbeing in….

If you are not used to it, is not so straightforward or easy to just let more joy, happiness and … More

More sunshine and more anxiety

Just had a walk up the river with the dogs, yesterday it was through the bluebells in the woods with … More

Loving Yourself

Where does the taboo against loving ourselves come from, this belief that it is wrong to have high self esteem? … More

Being in my 50s, making changes, and gently gently

These early to mid 50s – what is happening I often wonder. Why this shake up? And so many seem … More

Overcoming my Limits

This is a MAJOR project I’ve been engaged with for some years. Whenever things are going well in my life, … More

How to be Happy, even if it Scares you.

And this is one big note-to-self here. I feel fear just writing this post. I’m scared of being happy. There, … More

Deserving Wellbeing

A fragment of thought after pondering the resistance I’ve experienced to making positive s subject is huge and requires a … More

On Success

Thought I’d write a list, a sort of check in to the positive things that are happening. I am experiencing … More

Some thoughts on Success and Core Values

I have taken myself from being in receipt of welfare benefits aged 38 to having a thriving business that has … More

Fulfilment, purpose, belonging, contact, joy, engagement with life

I just started off about to write how lacking I am in these things. Then I realised I actually have … More

Help is Available

I have two life coaches at the moment, a therapist and an occasional mindfulness coach. What has happened over the … More

Travel to the wild coast

A bit of geographical movement helped to shift the mood last week. I took myself and a friend’s delightful 16 … More

An Admission to Myself

After all my work on consciously being aware of self sabotage, I had to admit that all this year I … More

The Attraction of not doing TOO well.

‘TOO well’ What does that mean? It means going near or beyond the inner limit of ‘doing well’ that we … More

Self sabotage to a Healthy Choices

How is it that am I enjoying and managing to sustain this new exercise regime, and healthy eating, and being generally … More

Choppy Waters again

Paddling round the edges of hell this morning. I am being mentally assaulted and pounded by desires to turn away … More

Sameness

Getting to accept this stability, calmness, quiet, aloneness. Drama will appear no doubt, but for now it is lacking though … More

Hungry Ghosts – Addiction

Today a bit about my personal struggle with unhealthy addictions. I was listening to Tara Brach’s podcast all last week about addictions and … More

Weekend Boozy Train-smash

The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More