Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Category: self abuse
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
Hello again Sadness and Anxiety
How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Privileged Abandonment
I was on a course all day yesterday about the damage done to children who are sent to boarding school. … More
Processing about of Self Judging
Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
Loving Ourselves – a reframing
We don’t have to learn how to love ourselves. We already love ourselves. All we have to do is to … More
Alcohol Free Experiment – Day 51
So my hairdresser challenged me to join her in the 30 day alcohol free experiment going around just now. So … More
How to be Happy, even if it Scares you.
And this is one big note-to-self here. I feel fear just writing this post. I’m scared of being happy. There, … More
Self Love Club Update
I attended last night and it was intense. The theme was self acceptance. She got us to write down some … More
The Attraction of not doing TOO well.
‘TOO well’ What does that mean? It means going near or beyond the inner limit of ‘doing well’ that we … More
Sameness
Getting to accept this stability, calmness, quiet, aloneness. Drama will appear no doubt, but for now it is lacking though … More
Hungry Ghosts – Addiction
Today a bit about my personal struggle with unhealthy addictions. I was listening to Tara Brach’s podcast all last week about addictions and … More
Weekend Boozy Train-smash
The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More
Suffering some days…
….and not suffering much on other days. I find myself curious about what makes some days harder than others in … More
Mr.Self Sabotage – Hello Again
Not by getting drunk and ill with it this time, but I bit a nail right down till it is … More
What is Behind my Self Sabotage?
In response to Tiramit’s question in the comments of a previous post, I will have a closer look at this … More
Mindfulness changes Everything
I was describing to a friend yesterday the changes I experienced when I started practising mindfulness regularly about 5 years … More
Towards Feeling Safe
A whole weekend lies ahead and I have just about nothing planned, other than enjoying freedom and spending quality time. … More
Repairing the Inner Relationship
The other day I got news of the death of an old boyfriend who I met when I was 18. … More
Standing up for Ourselves
I am noticing with some curiosity how my changing relationship with myself is causing some immediate changes in my relationships with … More
How can I be Kind to Myself Today?
Every day is an exciting opportunity to start afresh with new practises of self compassion and of finding ways to … More
There’s A Hole In My Sidewalk by Portia Nelson
Chapter One I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am … More
Self Love Vs Self Sabotage
These two are having a juicy war inside me at the moment. The more I love myself and open to allowing … More
Ignoring Advice to Myself
Well last night I did, and experienced the consequences of such self abuse. The other day I wrote about leaving some … More
This is quite a raw one….
And it just happened so I am processing here. Got a longstanding close friend who I texted today to see … More
Learning to Rest with it All 