One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Category: rigpa
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Airy Fairyland
Quite enjoyed the MRI scan, even all the loud strange sounds. An hour of imposed meditation. And to be in … More
Non-duality, Love and Running a Business
Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More
Chat with an Enlightened Person
And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More
What Self?
I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Diary entry – a Tuesday
So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Calm after the Storm
After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More
A Whole New World
Sitting on my little spot here on the planet and everything is changing by the second, hourly, daily. It gets … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
Thinking it into Existence
Continuing with dropping the thoughts and just trusting the Ground, over and over…..though less requirement recently, and it’s more automatic … More
Awakening help
I’ve benefitted greatly from listening to Angelo DiLullo. I’m listening to this podcast this morning with Viking Guru (who asks … More
Thoughts – Dropping and Trusting
I’m a walking, sitting, lying in bed, showering, shopping, chatting, bill paying, getting dressed and undressed, dog walking, ‘drop and … More
A reply
My hand holder through all this, this is how he responded to my latest round of earthly crisis. Sharing in … More
Peace
I’ve been submerging myself in fully surrendering to the vibrant emptiness and silence of me. All emphasis on happenings on … More
Finding Treasure
My treasure is the discovery of a powerful ever present completely safe refuge, the surrendering to spacious expansive silence. Whenever … More
Happy and a bit Lost
I awoke feeling well rested and actually a touch blissful. In a gentle little private heaven. Pleasure in my bones. … More
Learning to Rest with it All 