I enjoy being awake in bed between about 5am to 7am, especially during these dark winter days. Several cups of … More
Category: nature
Less Afraid of Feelings
Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More
Active Not Passive
Was listening to James Low talking about Dzogchen on and off all night. I fall asleep listening to these talks. … More
Another day
Having a crash inside this morning, nothing tangible just woke feeling low energy, anxiety waves, sluggish. Any thought about business … More
Expanding and Contracting
While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Praying, Nature and Anxiety
Still been waking up with these worry thoughts that create anxiety if I don’t notice them, which I’m not managing … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
Testing back into Unchanging Stillness
I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More
Resting and Adjusting
Was able to articulate a little better what is being experienced when I was with M. Something about his energy … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Another Beautiful day
Homage to those first few breaths of the fresh morning air outside! It is a daily precious miracle experience I … More
Head doesn’t get It
And that doesn’t mean non-duality isn’t worth exploring though! Angelo DiLullo posted an interesting video recently though very puzzling to … More
What what what, the Mind asks
8am and a sunny morning, had done all the reading, watching and digesting I have bandwidth for already. So now … More
Processing a Fear Visitor
In came surges of quite intense raw anxiety as I lay expecting to be comfortably drifting in and out of … More
Becoming Everything
Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More
Grounding
I write this down after reading a couple of posts on a forum on “Awakening’ on Facebook. It made me … More
A Day in the Life – Wednesday
Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Another Round of Processing
The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Sensual
I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More
I can’t get no…
That’s not a complaint. Just recording the changing scenery here. Vast impersonal space opens up, inside me and around me. … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
A Whole New World
Sitting on my little spot here on the planet and everything is changing by the second, hourly, daily. It gets … More
Guarding our Mental Health
How am I doing this? Firstly, I’m not succeeding all of the time. I spent the last 48 hours making … More
Thinking it into Existence
Continuing with dropping the thoughts and just trusting the Ground, over and over…..though less requirement recently, and it’s more automatic … More
Faith, Trust, and Surrender
Still here deep in the folds of the current cycle – my little dark night of the soul raging away, … More
Testing
Yesterday was a pretty meaty test – the ‘demons’ came hard and fast. Demons as in scary thoughts tempting me … More
It’s not all Roses
I often find my mood dipping. It happens quickly. At times it’s when I get carried away in little hostile … More
Wendell Berry Poem
“When despair for the world grows in meand I wake in the night at the least soundin fear of what … More
No added Sugar – Day 2
Since I’m on a roll of tolerating inner disturbance, I’m edging on further. I stopped caffeine a month ago and … More
Returning to the Seat of Self
Whew, I got lost there for a couple of days in angst, bargaining with reality and rumination. My mind couldn’t … More
Fine fizzling energy
I’m slowly breathing in and out from low down the body many times a day to stay grounded, and walking, … More
What a Rollercoaster
The world is changing before our eyes and not only are we witnessing changes we are also having to participate … More
A Positive side of This Pandemic
I was just pondering that if the planet were an intelligent being it might design something like this the way … More
Water spout Meditation
Swan feather in the Breeze
Relax with Bubbles
In the Slow Lane
It’s been an almighty adjustment slowing down. I’m listening to what my body wants now, after so many years of … More
Media Misery Onslaught
I’m observing around me that a sense of well-being, hope and happiness is in short supply among people in general. … More
Good Facts
I love my dog and she loves me and she is healthy and seems happy and is very well behaved … More
Today’s Process, Resting
‘Resting’ rather than ‘doing’ or ‘trying’ or ‘striving’ to adjust or replace or avoid or cling onto or get rid … More
Sameness
Getting to accept this stability, calmness, quiet, aloneness. Drama will appear no doubt, but for now it is lacking though … More
Weekend Boozy Train-smash
The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More
Suffering some days…
….and not suffering much on other days. I find myself curious about what makes some days harder than others in … More
Just observing
I am watching this recovery process day by day, as well as being fully submerged within it too. I feel … More
Its the simple things….
I would like to share what gives me the most joy each day. Yes I do enjoy my work, I have … More
Learning to Rest with it All 