I feel the cold of the key as I turn it in the lock. Then the wondrous smell of the … More
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Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
Relaxing the Resistance
Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More
Just so
Long sleep and no pharmaceuticals required. Good. Though now on two types of antibiotics though to remove the tooth infection. … More
I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….
Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change … More
Happy Arisings
Submerging intensely into a state of deep appreciation of this beautiful animal I share my life with….treasuring and savouring each … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
The land that is nowhere
And the deeper secret of the secret. The land that is nowhere, that is your true home. iChing Don’t look … More
Loving everything…
….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
No Complaints
The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
I love you, I admire you, I thank you….
Whenever I surfaced from sleep in the early hours, I would say, “I love you Susan”, and then onto several … More
Smoothness
Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Today this Helped
I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Surfacing Core Wounds
I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More
Peace of the Present
Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Stealing Peace
At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More
A Perfect Day
Sunshine and warmth and my morning non meditation meditations of listening to the Buddhist nun Samaneri Jayasara reading the deepest … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Wave of Fear
One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More
What am I Grateful for about Myself
What am I grateful for about myself? I’m grateful for my appreciation of beauty, my softness, empathy, intelligence, kindness. I … More
Untangling Obstructions
With the quiet patience of few expectations this last week has been one of resting, simplicity and a chance to … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Sensual
I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More
I can’t get no…
That’s not a complaint. Just recording the changing scenery here. Vast impersonal space opens up, inside me and around me. … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
The Power of Admitting it
“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More
Loving Ourselves – a reframing
We don’t have to learn how to love ourselves. We already love ourselves. All we have to do is to … More
“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“
“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More
Seeking Refuge
Life continues to teach me about the futility of seeking refuge where there is none to be found. In material … More
Life Update
A new motorhome has materialised. Heard about a neighbour selling it on Tuesday by yesterday it was paid for, a … More
Feeling of Infinity
The sense of it pervading and enveloping everything including me arrives each day these days. I have responses to it, … More
Kindness
I woke up to a little package on my doorstep. It was a beautifully made and delicious present of home … More
Surrender Experiment – Day 3 Reflections
I’ve had 2 days of doing my surrender experiment now, and I’m delighted to say that I have managed to … More
Straddling two Worlds
There’s one world in which we help and care for each other. We cooperate freely and giving is not perceived … More
A Positive side of This Pandemic
I was just pondering that if the planet were an intelligent being it might design something like this the way … More
Attachment styles
I had a dream last night about M. I was in love and longing for my ex to embrace with … More
What if Joy is Scary
What if you’re not used to it and it’s a more than a bit scary. Often it’s unconsciously scary and … More
Relax with Bubbles
A quick Messiah Netflix review
This series had a very positive effect on me. It was spiritually uplifting, and I am non religious. I binged … More
Welcoming Joy
I’ve been experiencing stability, relative calmness and waves of happiness recently. Life is going well and I’m experiencing a moment … More
Changing Focus
Just had an experience of changing my whole mood that I’d like to quickly share. I was sitting browsing through … More
Learning to Rest with it All 