Smoothness

Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More

Tantric Sex Dream

Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More

Really really Free

Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More

Today this Helped

I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More

Flow of Experience

Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More

Noticing and Dissolving Fears

Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More

Surfacing Core Wounds

I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More

Peace of the Present

Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More

Starving thoughts of Attention

Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More

Waking up in Heaven

Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More

An Anxiety Visit

This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More

Free of ‘Me’

I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More

Stealing Peace

At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More

A Perfect Day

Sunshine and warmth and my morning non meditation meditations of listening to the Buddhist nun Samaneri Jayasara reading the deepest … More

Just Being

I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More

And Happy Again

Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More

Another Day of Peace

It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More

Wave of Fear

One arrived this morning. ‘Shouldn’t you be worried about something, you might be forgetting something really important?” A thought suggested. … More

What am I Grateful for about Myself

What am I grateful for about myself? I’m grateful for my appreciation of beauty, my softness, empathy, intelligence, kindness. I … More

Untangling Obstructions

With the quiet patience of few expectations this last week has been one of resting, simplicity and a chance to … More

Lost at Sea

Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More

Sensual

I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More

I can’t get no…

That’s not a complaint. Just recording the changing scenery here. Vast impersonal space opens up, inside me and around me. … More

Savouring

I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More

The Power of Admitting it

“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More

Loving Ourselves – a reframing

We don’t have to learn how to love ourselves. We already love ourselves. All we have to do is to … More

“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“

“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More

Seeking Refuge

Life continues to teach me about the futility of seeking refuge where there is none to be found. In material … More

Life Update

A new motorhome has materialised. Heard about a neighbour selling it on Tuesday by yesterday it was paid for, a … More

Feeling of Infinity

The sense of it pervading and enveloping everything including me arrives each day these days. I have responses to it, … More