The physical location of where I feel myself in the body, where I am perceiving the outside world from. When … More
Category: here and now
In the shower noticing
In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More
Noticing
As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, … More
Refuge of the Present
One of the winter time treasures is getting up around 6am into the cold air, going through to the kitchen, … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
More Calmness
Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Head doesn’t get It
And that doesn’t mean non-duality isn’t worth exploring though! Angelo DiLullo posted an interesting video recently though very puzzling to … More
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Diary entry – a Tuesday
So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More
Edge Dwelling
A morning at the allotment having another fire with E and a walk in the woods in the glorious sun, … More
Choosing to Let Life go Well
I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Sensual
I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
Intimate
Intimacy with this very moment happening right now. As I walk down the hall I go real slow. I breathe … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
A Whole New World
Sitting on my little spot here on the planet and everything is changing by the second, hourly, daily. It gets … More
Unwell yet Happy
More useful adversity. I have been a little unwell this week with a sore throat, chest infection and cough. I … More
Losing the Doer
I was cleaning out the vacuum earlier. I realised that I was somewhat rushing to finish the experience to get … More
Waking up Happy
More accurately, I woke up NOT feeling scared or anxious at all which allowed my natural state of being to … More
Life Update in the Here and Now
Steeped in the practice of being.right.here.in.this.moment.every moment as often as I remember which is a lot more often now. I … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
Little Life Update
Travelling along in the ever present moment here if that’s not too much of a contradiction. There are many moments … More
Very Wise Quote – HH Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit. … More
Dishwasher Gratitude!
Quick one this morning on how a normally insignificant activity can be an opportunity to notice how well supported I … More
Useful Adversity
I’m enjoying the daily and hourly beauty of relinquishment and the giving up of what I want to happen. That’s … More
Shower Meditation
Today my foray into ‘dark night of the soul’ is on pause (woohoo) and it could just be due to … More
Keeping it Simple
Life is made up of mostly small things and little tasks. I used to find myself rushing through these to … More
What is Working?
“My brow is fairly in the gutter” my poetic friend told me. I don’t think he is alone, it’s a … More
The World is a Feeling
I feel the leaves gentle float through the air to the ground, the crows high in the tree roosting, the … More
Facing the fear of not Interpreting
To face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience is a big beautiful ongoing lesson for me. … More
Long Wise Quote
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit. … More
Gratitude
Tempering the mind’s tendency to look for problems here at the moment. Regular gratitude check-ins help to ground me in … More
A Positive side of This Pandemic
I was just pondering that if the planet were an intelligent being it might design something like this the way … More
Covid Introversion Pressure Cooker
This isolation. The deaths. It’s a shock. Many of us are in shock from what I can see. Life has … More
Doing nearly Nothing
Is what I’m doing this weekend, all weekend. It’s what I need. I don’t have energy to see anyone or … More
Perspectives
One very important reminder that the recent spate of suicides has given me is that how I feel and how … More
Easing gently into Self Care
And how to integrate it into my life, and how I do it. Firstly I take note that there is … More
New beginnings
Circumstances continue to temp catastrophising thoughts and I getting pretty jammy at dealing with them now. I notice them as … More
Finding the still Centre
I’ve been taking some steps to increase my resilience to stress recently. I have had to or suffer! Life has … More
Monday Gratitude
Good morning, it’s a new week and it feels like the last week of summer. We are swiftly entering the … More
Joy of the Ordinary
I would love to appreciate my life more. Ordinary, normal, every day life. Im haunted by the idea that in … More
Gusts of the unexpected
One minute it’s all down in the dumps next it’s encouraged and cheerful. I’m like a leaf on the wind … More
Morning’s process – Trusting Peace
When you have a nervous system trained and primed to be on the alert for unexpected danger then the idea … More
Sameness
Getting to accept this stability, calmness, quiet, aloneness. Drama will appear no doubt, but for now it is lacking though … More
More Peace, less Strain
A few days more have passed of living without my favourite bad habits, alcohol, sugar, overeating and Facebook. And all … More
Weekend Boozy Train-smash
The weekend started fine. On Saturday a beautiful walk and little picnic with a 10 year girl, walking around in the woods up … More
Slow Motion
I am discovering the joys of going into slow motion for short periods each day. It is an access door, … More
Turning with Kindness Inside
I do this a lot recently, turn towards the inside experiences with kindness. It’s my new hobby, and the payoff … More
Learning to Rest with it All 