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Category: feelings
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
The Smooth and the Hard times
It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More
Handing over Objections
Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Therapy Session
Light rain bringing such wonderful smells. It was lovely to walk in the fields and woods in the rain yesterday, … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Testing testing !
Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More
Back Here
My 3 months of this long job is drawing to a close. It has been a joy not to have … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Appreciating the Small
Awake at 5, I open the window and the fragrant rainy fresh air rushes in, and my body says thank … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Emotions in the Body
I light a little tea candle and place it in front of me as a reminder to feel into the … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Aloneness
I just read an excellent article summing up why reading the news is bad for us. It really spoke to … More
Privileged Abandonment
I was on a course all day yesterday about the damage done to children who are sent to boarding school. … More
Low Mood Morning
The colourful visual zigzags started yesterday signalling the start of a migraine and then it arrived. Mildly painful only but … More
The Truth at any Price
A glimpse of sun after all the rain yesterday enticed me out for an early walk this morning which was … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Dip of a Morning
Not sure why. It was a stressful day yesterday with more minor bad news from another project – easy to … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Ebbs and Struggles
Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More
Letting Go
I’m struggling today, migraine started yesterday and lying on the sofa now. Feeling low energy and mood. Can’t find anything … More
Being with Uncertainty
The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Surrounding Suffering
I had another night of listening to the centuries old Dzogchen texts read out by Samaneri Jayasara. I’ve got her … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
What is Happy
It is definitely a feeling that arises from within for me. I’m pretty sure it’s there all the time, joy … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
Another Round of Processing
The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
More Feelings to Process
Allowing my feelings to be felt more, I have more material to work with, again appearing in a dream. In … More
So I Opened the Gates
And there’s now a little queue of unaddressed neglected feelings all lined up waiting their turn to be felt fully … More
Dropping down into Feelings
A thrill of anticipation this morning as I was getting up. I know how to deal with anxiety at last … More
Letting go of Anxiety
By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More
Feeling Off
I call these periods mini ‘dark nights of the soul’. I like the drama of that phrase and it does … More
Untangling Obstructions
With the quiet patience of few expectations this last week has been one of resting, simplicity and a chance to … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
Testing the Wings
Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More
Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks
“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
The Power of Admitting it
“I feel fear…… I feel fear……. I feel fear….. hello there fear I acknowledge you’. I say it out loud … More
Learning to Rest with it All 