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Category: fear
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Magic of Nature
The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let … More
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More
Open to Feelings
I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More
Intimacy with the Now
The single act of choosing to be in the present moment has profound effects. I notice a big resistance to … More
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
Relaxing the Resistance
Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More
Riding Highs and Lows
The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More
Be Quiet
‘Be quiet’ the inner guidance voiced clearly as I was walking across the field lost in thinking. ‘Be quiet and … More
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More
Forgiveness
Forgiveness in ACIM states that the ‘sin’ never happened so there’s nothing to forgive. Just an error that wasn’t real … More
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Scarcity and Abundance
I dance between the two. If I allow myself to be hauled by my mind with its fearful thoughts into … More
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
Into the Body
There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More
In the Present with Nature
Enjoyed yesterday out in the park getting more still inside. I set myself a challenge to find beauty in the … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Sunk Mood at the Start
Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More
Emerging from Turbulence
I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
The Expanded Self
It was useful to read this Course in Miracles Excerpt earlier, to be reminded of that sense of an expanded … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Rainy Monday
Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea, … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
Thank you
Looked after despite my fears, time and time again. I doubted and was starting to worry about the lack of … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Hello again Sadness and Anxiety
How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Today this Helped
I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Congratulations to Me
Lying here in the immense heat of the hottest day on record in the U.K. 28 degrees C or 83F … More
Back Here
My 3 months of this long job is drawing to a close. It has been a joy not to have … More
Learning to Rest with it All 