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Category: emotions
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Handing over Objections
Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More
A Wonderful Day
Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More
Shadow Work
Day started with one friend inviting me for breakfast at the local bar/restaurant. I didn’t enjoy it. There was a … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Today this Helped
I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Undoings
Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More
Therapy Session
Light rain bringing such wonderful smells. It was lovely to walk in the fields and woods in the rain yesterday, … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Testing testing !
Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Another day
Having a crash inside this morning, nothing tangible just woke feeling low energy, anxiety waves, sluggish. Any thought about business … More
Gayatri Mantra
Still reciting the Gayatri out loud quietly and inside a lot. I haven’t much experience with mantra based meditation but … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Praying, Nature and Anxiety
Still been waking up with these worry thoughts that create anxiety if I don’t notice them, which I’m not managing … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Emotions in the Body
I light a little tea candle and place it in front of me as a reminder to feel into the … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
Testing back into Unchanging Stillness
I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Defending a Position
Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More
Being Swept Along
I keep getting this recurring sense that I am not making all this happen. And that instead it is best … More
Processing about of Self Judging
Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Ebbs and Struggles
Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More
Being with Uncertainty
The days seems to disappear in a blink, as do the weeks. Thursday already and this week has carried this … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Jumpy This Morning
Thursday. There’s a lot of this happening during this opening/awakening situation I’m in, disturbances and sufferings are way more noticeable … More
An Anxiety Visit
This happens fairly regularly these days as I go deeper into trust. And it seems to be cyclic following a … More
Arising Stuff – Recapitulation
Long one today…more of a personal diary entry on the childhood recapitulation and letting go trail. They keep arriving – … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
Surrounding Suffering
I had another night of listening to the centuries old Dzogchen texts read out by Samaneri Jayasara. I’ve got her … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Hungry Ghosts – Addiction Dropping
This is a little personal congratulations and an acknowledgement of something that is of significance to me, and that is … More
Here and Now
The realisation that there is only the present comes in waves. And my mind hates that because there’s nothing for … More
More Feelings to Process
Allowing my feelings to be felt more, I have more material to work with, again appearing in a dream. In … More
Learning to Rest with it All 