Facing Reactivity

Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More

Encounter with Resistance

Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More

Some Laughter

Lot of fun yesterday, first with a client with whom a very direct, humorous and trusting relationship has developed. And … More

Handing over Objections

Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More

Back out of It

As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More

Angst

Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More

Undoings

Feeling low this morning. Yesterday I had a magnificent woodland walk, lunch at the park cafe….and saw the men on … More

Friday Ponderings

A little follow on from yesterdays musings… “People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is … More

Navigating Feelings and Thoughts

Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More

Half Full/Half Empty

The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More

Not Scared

‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More

Enlightenment, what is it?

Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More

Dissecting Dreams

Thank you to my body for the 8 hours sleep, what a joy. I was so so relaxed and comfy … More

Shadow work by Dream

Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More

Dark Night Cont…

What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More

Worry Thoughts

The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More

Overload

Feeling quite stressed. Do I know what that is about, well yes I do. This whole process of facing and … More

Testing back into Unchanging Stillness

I have two clients to see this morning. It is always a great way to start the day, being useful. … More

Honesty Dose

I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More

Resting and Adjusting

Was able to articulate a little better what is being experienced when I was with M. Something about his energy … More

Defending a Position

Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More

Facing the Disturbing Stuff

Thought it’s about time I just allow the noises from upstairs to take place without putting music on every time … More

Starving thoughts of Attention

Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More

Processing about of Self Judging

Here sitting at the kitchen table right now, where real life happens through the senses in this present as it … More

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

Ebbs and Struggles

Third day of this migraine. Headache just humming away in the background. Not that sore but draining. Starts up again … More

Transcendental Smell

There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More

Actually doing it

Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More

Drop the thought. All is well.

Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More

Ego Games

Sunshine outside, and listening to Nisargadatta being read, and it is sublime. This one will be on repeat over and … More