The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let … More
Category: dzogchen
Strong Healing Medicine
The will to remain conscious is strong just now. Thank you very much to the pain of imagined adversity for … More
Be Quiet
‘Be quiet’ the inner guidance voiced clearly as I was walking across the field lost in thinking. ‘Be quiet and … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
The Joy Waiting for Us
A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
Surrendering back into Love
Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More
Wise Quote – HH Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche
“The everyday practice of dzogchen is simply to develop a complete carefree acceptance, an openness to all situations without limit. … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Violins in the Park
Contracting up….noticing noticing….And relaxing back into aware space and remembering to breath. A beautiful morning walk and lunch at the … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
Active Not Passive
Was listening to James Low talking about Dzogchen on and off all night. I fall asleep listening to these talks. … More
The Resolution of Anxiety – very long Wise Quote
By James Low 1. The ground of all experience, and therefore of everything, is nothing other than our own presence. … More
Resolution and Healing
In bed writing this morning. That’s unusual, I want to ground myself. It’s been a rocky night. Lot of awake … More
Stillness and Flux
The changing dynamic appearances and arisings of life emerge spontaneously within an alive field of open vibrant spaciousness. If there … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Expanding and Contracting
While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More
A Little Drama
I’ve been submerging back into the teachings of Longchenpa the last couple of days, after weeks of being unable to … More
New Vibe in the Air
Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Non-duality, Love and Running a Business
Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More
What Self?
I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More
Veneration
I don’t know where veneration fits in or if it is the right word. Sounds religious. Or who to write … More
Diary entry – a Tuesday
So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More
Becoming Everything
Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
A Day in the Life – Wednesday
Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Savouring
Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More
Stealing Peace
At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Wednesday to Thursday
Another one for my future self to read. Day starts early with tea in bed for a couple of hours … More
What is Happy
It is definitely a feeling that arises from within for me. I’m pretty sure it’s there all the time, joy … More
Another 24 hours
Long one and this is for future amusement and pondering on how I’m living now. Hello future self, I hope … More
A Day in the Life
Not very interesting to read perhaps so maybe dont but I wanted to record a typical day in my life … More
Strange World out There
Today. It’s 8am and I’m at the kitchen table, lovely long sleep as usual. Refreshed and ready for a brand … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
Here and Now
The realisation that there is only the present comes in waves. And my mind hates that because there’s nothing for … More
Another Round of Processing
The angry call from my mum triggered some old childhood memories and feelings. The way our mum used to brush … More
Tibetan Dream
I have been falling asleep listening to 1000+ year old Tibetan Dzogchen texts recently, and last night with Vairotsana. These … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Letting go of Anxiety
By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More
Jittery Edge Territory
Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More
A Moment of Grace
I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Intimate
Intimacy with this very moment happening right now. As I walk down the hall I go real slow. I breathe … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
A Whole New World
Sitting on my little spot here on the planet and everything is changing by the second, hourly, daily. It gets … More
Thoughts Suggest what we should be Feeling
Thoughts come in continuously giving me suggestions of what I should be feeling. A thought can often be a suggestion … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Learning to Rest with it All 