Not Two

The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More

Really really Free

Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More

Relaxing and Contracting

I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More

Back out of It

As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More

Angst

Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More

Violins in the Park

Contracting up….noticing noticing….And relaxing back into aware space and remembering to breath. A beautiful morning walk and lunch at the … More

Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis

Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More

Navigating Feelings and Thoughts

Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More

Enlightenment, what is it?

Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More

Feeling Supported

Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More

Active Not Passive

Was listening to James Low talking about Dzogchen on and off all night. I fall asleep listening to these talks. … More

The Resolution of Anxiety – very long Wise Quote

By James Low 1. The ground of all experience, and therefore of everything, is nothing other than our own presence. … More

Resolution and Healing

In bed writing this morning. That’s unusual, I want to ground myself. It’s been a rocky night. Lot of awake … More

Stillness and Flux

The changing dynamic appearances and arisings of life emerge spontaneously within an alive field of open vibrant spaciousness. If there … More

Safe and Home

Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More

Expanding and Contracting

While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More

A Little Drama

I’ve been submerging back into the teachings of Longchenpa the last couple of days, after weeks of being unable to … More

New Vibe in the Air

Out early today to bathe in the morning sunshine – up the river to the woods and into the field. … More

Just this Moment

The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More

Into and Through Suffering

Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More

Non-duality, Love and Running a Business

Curious about running a business from a non-dual perspective and if it’s even possible. Gosh this has come up so … More

What Self?

I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More

Veneration

I don’t know where veneration fits in or if it is the right word. Sounds religious. Or who to write … More

Diary entry – a Tuesday

So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More

Becoming Everything

Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More

A Little Lightness

Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More

A Day in the Life – Wednesday

Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More

Free of ‘Me’

I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More

Savouring

Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More

Stealing Peace

At times I feel as though I’m ‘stealing’ moments of peace. I don’t trust it fully. It’s like a passing … More