I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
Category: building resilience
Socialising
Bit of a round up summary of the last few days. The journey continues into the New Year, it’s all … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
Taking risks, trusting…
The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More
Loving everything…
….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More
Making Life a bit more Fun
Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More
Calming the Nervous System
A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
Love Bombs
I’ve been dropping these love bombs on my beleaguered conditioned psyche recently. Think there’s quite a lot of inner adjustments … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Smoothness
Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Testing testing !
Who am I when things don’t go my way?What happens when events I don’t want to happen just happen anyway?When … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
“Stop being jerked like a puppet”. Marcus Aurelius
I watch myself being jerked like a puppet by events in my environment that my ego has decided ‘should’ not … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Arising Stuff – Recapitulation
Long one today…more of a personal diary entry on the childhood recapitulation and letting go trail. They keep arriving – … More
Ripples of Anxiety
Awoke this morning feeling a little clenched fist in my chest area. So I turned my attention to it, right … More
A Thank You
Gratitude and appreciation had become such an integrated part of my every day attitude that I stopped having to think … More
Hungry Ghosts – Addiction Dropping
This is a little personal congratulations and an acknowledgement of something that is of significance to me, and that is … More
Here and Now
The realisation that there is only the present comes in waves. And my mind hates that because there’s nothing for … More
Tibetan Dream
I have been falling asleep listening to 1000+ year old Tibetan Dzogchen texts recently, and last night with Vairotsana. These … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Breaking free of the Social Shackles Continued
I have been exploring how we can be held back by others and motivated to hold ourselves back by our … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks
“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More
Life Update in the Here and Now
Steeped in the practice of being.right.here.in.this.moment.every moment as often as I remember which is a lot more often now. I … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
We got This!
I’m feeling optimistic that many more of us are finding the remarkably simple formula for expanding our awareness and increasing … More
Collapsing the Stickman
When I allow thoughts to arrive unnoticed, my mind can build them into little stories in my head that I … More
Testing
Yesterday was a pretty meaty test – the ‘demons’ came hard and fast. Demons as in scary thoughts tempting me … More
Finding Treasure
My treasure is the discovery of a powerful ever present completely safe refuge, the surrendering to spacious expansive silence. Whenever … More
Wendell Berry Poem
“When despair for the world grows in meand I wake in the night at the least soundin fear of what … More
Eventful Week
After some months of very little going on this week has been a big beautiful storm of people and activity … More
Happiness Visits
I’m little by little getting used to this new sense of expansiveness and openness of heart. I presume it’s due … More
Trying to Avoid Pain
How timid I’ve been about feeling emotional pain. I have spent decades trying to control my environment so that I … More
Returning to the Seat of Self
Whew, I got lost there for a couple of days in angst, bargaining with reality and rumination. My mind couldn’t … More
Happy and a bit Lost
I awoke feeling well rested and actually a touch blissful. In a gentle little private heaven. Pleasure in my bones. … More
Letting the Joy loose
So. I’m still waiting to find out about the big project. And towards the end of yesterday I identified the … More
Normalising vulnerability
Watching therapists share with each other on the CBT course helped to further normalise talking about subjects that would usually … More
What a Rollercoaster
The world is changing before our eyes and not only are we witnessing changes we are also having to participate … More
A Positive side of This Pandemic
I was just pondering that if the planet were an intelligent being it might design something like this the way … More
Hard weather
Literally, it’s been pouring and blowing a gale with only minor breaks for weeks and weeks, unrelenting. What a metaphor … More
Trusting Yourself
Quite often a strong inner prompting suggests a course of action that is contrary to the one we have made … More
What if Joy is Scary
What if you’re not used to it and it’s a more than a bit scary. Often it’s unconsciously scary and … More
The Terror and the Wonder of being Alive
Bit of a longer one this morning as I sit here drinking tea waiting to leave in an hour to … More
How I stopped biting my Nails after 52 years
In my baby book it was written when my age was just 2, “she bites her nails”. And I have … More
Hello Wellbeing, and welcome :-)
I have experienced a couple of days of heightened wellbeing. I’m consciously allowing it in, and noticing fears and discomforts … More
Being Gentle
And continuing to celebrate the small victories. Small steps every day that are beneficial and healthy to me and to … More
Gratitude – An Unexpected Bonus
Yes cultivating a habit of gratitude makes us feel great, a whole lot less moany, way more focused on what … More
Lowering Expectations
This has been a challenging process for me. As a person addicted to optimism and a delight of imagining that … More
Learning to Rest with it All 