Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Category: breathing
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Feeling Well
I ping pong between dread and anxiety and trust and go with the flow and this blog is the drama … More
Surfing the Constant Fluctuations
Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Emotions in the Body
I light a little tea candle and place it in front of me as a reminder to feel into the … More
Overload
Feeling quite stressed. Do I know what that is about, well yes I do. This whole process of facing and … More
Healthy Habits
Still feeling quite disorientated here today and feel a need for some nurturing time alone today. Ignored a dear old … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Connecting with Difficult Feelings
The body is the secret. What is being felt right now in this very moment? How do I know how … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Intimate
Intimacy with this very moment happening right now. As I walk down the hall I go real slow. I breathe … More
Taking Refuge
I had 10 enquiries overnight for counselling and have just answered each one. Many will be in the park – … More
Surrendering Anxiety
Here we go, right on cue, after tastes of fabulous freedom recently, anxiety provoking thoughts arrive a day or two … More
“Shouldn’t I be Doing Something Else?“
“Something more important, more urgent”. This is a voice that comes to me quite regularly. And I answer it with … More
Emotions – They are Temporary
Quick one to remind us that it is helpful to keep in mind that emotions are largely temporary. It’s particularly … More
Sitting Back Inside
Sitting right right back as far as I can for a few seconds and noticing the thoughts that arrive. Then … More
Shower Meditation
Today my foray into ‘dark night of the soul’ is on pause (woohoo) and it could just be due to … More
Faith, Trust, and Surrender
Still here deep in the folds of the current cycle – my little dark night of the soul raging away, … More
Testing
Yesterday was a pretty meaty test – the ‘demons’ came hard and fast. Demons as in scary thoughts tempting me … More
A Spiritual Emergency
I’ve heard it called that. A few days of inner agony mostly on than off for days and days…angst, anxiety, … More
Life Update
A new motorhome has materialised. Heard about a neighbour selling it on Tuesday by yesterday it was paid for, a … More
I had a Stroke!
Not even just a mini one. On Thursday morning I woke up nearly paralysed down one side…and to cut it … More
Imagined fear
In my dream last night I was high up on a ladder. I was 100s of metres up and approaching … More
Feeling of Infinity
The sense of it pervading and enveloping everything including me arrives each day these days. I have responses to it, … More
It’s not all Roses
I often find my mood dipping. It happens quickly. At times it’s when I get carried away in little hostile … More
The World is a Feeling
I feel the leaves gentle float through the air to the ground, the crows high in the tree roosting, the … More
Navigating a Balanced way
From dancing with joy in the woods in the rain the other day to a slump in mood and a … More
Facing the fear of not Interpreting
To face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience is a big beautiful ongoing lesson for me. … More
The Attraction of Problems
As I lay in bed surfacing from a fine long sleep, I watched my mind kick in as it started … More
Happiness Visits
I’m little by little getting used to this new sense of expansiveness and openness of heart. I presume it’s due … More
Trying to Avoid Pain
How timid I’ve been about feeling emotional pain. I have spent decades trying to control my environment so that I … More
Opening and Closing
To not close my heart and to instead remain open (and free). That sums it all up. The Mission. I … More
Returning to the Seat of Self
Whew, I got lost there for a couple of days in angst, bargaining with reality and rumination. My mind couldn’t … More
Happiness up, Anxiety down
Largely as a result of taking my ego on, taking a stand and not adjusting the world to make it … More
Surrender Experiment – Day 3 Reflections
I’ve had 2 days of doing my surrender experiment now, and I’m delighted to say that I have managed to … More
Eckhart Tolle
I watched this yesterday and oh my, is he on fire and in full flow of transmitting the wisdom of … More
Letting the Joy loose
So. I’m still waiting to find out about the big project. And towards the end of yesterday I identified the … More
Swan feather in the Breeze
The Terror and the Wonder of being Alive
Bit of a longer one this morning as I sit here drinking tea waiting to leave in an hour to … More
Hello Wellbeing, and welcome :-)
I have experienced a couple of days of heightened wellbeing. I’m consciously allowing it in, and noticing fears and discomforts … More
Choosing What to Give Attention to
Removing attention from some people and activities and making a conscious choice of where to focus attention has been a … More
Being Gentle
And continuing to celebrate the small victories. Small steps every day that are beneficial and healthy to me and to … More
Breathing from the Stomach
A friend of mine often mentions breathing deeply from low in the body and the positive changes he has experienced. … More
Welcoming Joy
I’ve been experiencing stability, relative calmness and waves of happiness recently. Life is going well and I’m experiencing a moment … More
Loving Yourself
Where does the taboo against loving ourselves come from, this belief that it is wrong to have high self esteem? … More
So far so good…
Have gone many many days now in a state of relative stability and wellbeing and so far have not done … More
New beginnings
Circumstances continue to temp catastrophising thoughts and I getting pretty jammy at dealing with them now. I notice them as … More
On Mindfulness, the dangers…
I’ve observed at a drop in mindfulness group I used to go to that some severely anxious people who came … More
Learning to Rest with it All 