Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Category: boundaries
Different Rhythm
A little bumpy adjusting last night to not having my usual near complete peace and solitude! Young people drinking and … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
Relationship with Mum
I will maybe explore this over a few days as it will be too long. First I’ll lay out the … More
Being Open and Feeling Low
Being somewhat unravelled, undone and deconstructed just now, I’m not shining my usual note. There’s a low mood visiting and … More
Monday Mornin’ Rain
Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More
Dip of a Morning
Not sure why. It was a stressful day yesterday with more minor bad news from another project – easy to … More
Hungry Ghosts – Addiction Dropping
This is a little personal congratulations and an acknowledgement of something that is of significance to me, and that is … More
More Feelings to Process
Allowing my feelings to be felt more, I have more material to work with, again appearing in a dream. In … More
Breaking free of the Social Shackles Continued
I have been exploring how we can be held back by others and motivated to hold ourselves back by our … More
Breaking Free of the Social Shackles
I’m still thinking about how we overall as a society keep each other (and ourselves) retarded and held back in … More
A Tightening
I have been tightening up and up and up, and it’s damn painful. A whole set of triggering factors ricocheting … More
Took a Risk
Quite a big one for me with my conditioning to please others. Risking another’s wrath. And experiencing the fall out … More
Happiness
I’ve been experiencing it the last couple of days. Things are going well. Perhaps more a state of wellbeing than … More
Wishes of Others or Mine?
When to put my own feelings aside with the aim of being of service to others? When to listen to … More
Boundaries
I didn’t used to feel I had a right to have healthy boundaries. People were free to treat me badly … More