Awoke not well rested, an odd sleep again full of vivid dreams. In one a friend had sacked their nanny … More
Category: being present
Just this Moment
The hum of the heating, the warmth on the skin, the weight of the body on the seat. I’m breathing … More
Criticising, company, appreciation….
Slept from 9pm till 6am, and feel well for it. Yesterday morning I took one of the men to work. … More
Peace of the Present
Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More
Another Beautiful day
Homage to those first few breaths of the fresh morning air outside! It is a daily precious miracle experience I … More
Starving thoughts of Attention
Back at the kitchen table. Another sunny one and quite a lot on today, relatively speaking. A new client at … More
Head doesn’t get It
And that doesn’t mean non-duality isn’t worth exploring though! Angelo DiLullo posted an interesting video recently though very puzzling to … More
What what what, the Mind asks
8am and a sunny morning, had done all the reading, watching and digesting I have bandwidth for already. So now … More
Waking up in Heaven
Awaking early I become aware of the exquisite pleasure of the body within folds of fresh brushed cotton bedding. The … More
Later
Well well well, it didn’t take much to shift that stuck energy, and I did feel pretty stuck. As I … More
Into and Through Suffering
Yesterday turned out to be unexpectedly social. I was glad for the company on what was an odd, out of … More
Learning to Rest with it All
And each apparent failure to do that is not a failure. Lying in bed waking, dipping in and out of … More
Transcendental Smell
There’s a certain smell that arises in the morning air after a long rain, when the moisture and temperature conditions … More
Actually doing it
Not only reading about it and watching YouTube videos about it….. Being here and now this. very. second. I am … More
Sunday Morning
The rest of the day yesterday was spent deeply absorbed in a spaciousness with very few self referential thoughts appearing. … More
Chat with an Enlightened Person
And they would say there is no person and all of us were never not enlightened. The Marc Leavitt conversations … More
Drop the thought. All is well.
Strange night in and out of sleep. Not sure what the what is going on. Lot of blankness it seems, … More
Ego Games
Sunshine outside, and listening to Nisargadatta being read, and it is sublime. This one will be on repeat over and … More
What Self?
I’ve spent all these years developing and improving this ‘self’ called Susan only to discover that the secret all along … More
Quiet time Now
Much excitement has been arising inside about how far this relaxing into the present can be taken. A kind of … More
Diary entry – a Tuesday
So much seemingly taking place and yet ‘I’ feel very little to do with it. It’s as if there is … More
Becoming Everything
Reading a post this morning was realising that when the ‘I’ disappears, there’s no place to take a position from, … More
A Little Lightness
Listened to Samaneri Jayasara again into the evening evening and let it run all night long again. 8.23 hours sleep, … More
Grounding
I write this down after reading a couple of posts on a forum on “Awakening’ on Facebook. It made me … More
A Day in the Life – Wednesday
Not sure what this recording of daily detail is about here. Other than I feel chatty sometimes and I also … More
Choosing to Let Life go Well
I was lying in bed this morning, no need to get up, no need to do anything other than enjoy … More
Face the Fear of not Interpreting….
‘Face the fear of not interpreting and stay with the experience’. I was advised by an anonymous person on a … More
Free of ‘Me’
I’m so very grateful to these directly felt experiences of how beautiful life can be. Right now everything feels perfect … More
Savouring
Really savouring the good times when they arise, communicates the message that it is allowed, it is welcome and it … More
A Perfect Day
Sunshine and warmth and my morning non meditation meditations of listening to the Buddhist nun Samaneri Jayasara reading the deepest … More
Just Being
I’m making friends with ‘just being’ these days. Dropping much of the mental content and outwards focus and turning towards … More
Trusting Safety
Another day in the life with some of my inner processes. Again written for my future self. Who I imagine … More
And Back to Peace again
Relative peace anyway. My ego is on alert now it knows I’m onto it! I am on this intensive personal … More
Here and Now
The realisation that there is only the present comes in waves. And my mind hates that because there’s nothing for … More
And Happy Again
Noticing a pattern here. You look right at the disowned feelings, allow them to be felt, let disturbance in and … More
Another Day of Peace
It lasted all day the feeling of at-ease-ness. I had one therapy client then another, some garden business work, then … More
Calm after the Storm
After opening the gates of disowned feelings and emotions and letting them arise yesterday, the pain did subside. It was … More
Letting go of Anxiety
By feeling it. Fully. And relaxing with it. The fear is that if we allow uncomfortable feelings to be felt, … More
Jittery Edge Territory
Circling the edges surrounding the new unexplored territory and physically experiencing the jitters. Joyful jitters though, excitement and anticipation of … More
A Moment of Grace
I was pondering in a moment of appreciation, that this is a period of relative peace inside. A sense of … More
Lost at Sea
Yes that’s a perfect description for my felt experience at the moment. After weeks of family visits and dinners I’m … More
Adversity as a Friend
One of the most exciting discoveries of the last couple of turbulent years for me is that personal adversity can … More
Sensual
I was kissed gently and confidently last night by a close friend in a dream. It was the perfect moment. … More
Hello Again Stress
How are you doing, it has been a while. As I woke up I noticed some kind of mild suffering … More
Intimate
Intimacy with this very moment happening right now. As I walk down the hall I go real slow. I breathe … More
Savouring
I’m savouring my positive happy experiences more and more these days as I realise the huge importance of learning to … More
An Awake Day
A whole day nearly of being wide open and wide awake. The thought, ‘this is what enlightenment feels like’ arrived … More
A Whole New World
Sitting on my little spot here on the planet and everything is changing by the second, hourly, daily. It gets … More
Testing the Wings
Up super early today and sitting gratefully cosy and comfy here on this December morning. Cold and dark outside. All … More
Short Wise Quote – Gay Hendricks
“I had been resisting reality all my life—resisting facing it, resisting accepting it, resisting feeling it. Whenever I would have … More
Losing the Doer
I was cleaning out the vacuum earlier. I realised that I was somewhat rushing to finish the experience to get … More
Taking Refuge
I had 10 enquiries overnight for counselling and have just answered each one. Many will be in the park – … More
Walking to the Edge
All day yesterday the phrase ‘walk to the edge and the edge will come to meet you, and then you … More
Guarding our Mental Health
How am I doing this? Firstly, I’m not succeeding all of the time. I spent the last 48 hours making … More
Worry Hijack Dissected
I’ve been communicating about and celebrating my successes here lately so here’s an example of different type of success, a … More
Life Update in the Here and Now
Steeped in the practice of being.right.here.in.this.moment.every moment as often as I remember which is a lot more often now. I … More
Screen Time
Endless Twitter and Facebook scrolling, meetings and courses on Zoom, work on the computer, hours spent binge watching, and lots … More
Welcoming the Obstacles
Its 6am. Lying in bed newly awake and the head kicks in and starts to think it’s thoughts. I notice … More
Little Life Update
Travelling along in the ever present moment here if that’s not too much of a contradiction. There are many moments … More
We got This!
I’m feeling optimistic that many more of us are finding the remarkably simple formula for expanding our awareness and increasing … More
Learning to Rest with it All 