Brain is saying any old shit. Any number of comments on life or about this or that, me and how … More
Category: being present
Just so
Long sleep and no pharmaceuticals required. Good. Though now on two types of antibiotics though to remove the tooth infection. … More
Allowing
Dropping down out of the head area and orienting from the heart/chest/midriff/tummy area of the body is remaining with me. … More
Happy Arisings
Submerging intensely into a state of deep appreciation of this beautiful animal I share my life with….treasuring and savouring each … More
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
The Little Things
The little experiences. The ordinary moments. I notice clearly that if I take care of those with care and love … More
Being in the Body
Sleep scored an ‘excellent’ 92/100 by the Fitbit last night. Early to sleep and early to awake at 6am. This … More
Greeting Myself in the Morning
Good morning and warm greetings to you. Welcome to another day. I love you. I say to myself on awakening. … More
Follow the Joy
Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More
Scarcity and Abundance
I dance between the two. If I allow myself to be hauled by my mind with its fearful thoughts into … More
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
In the shower noticing
In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More
Noticing
As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, … More
Refuge of the Present
One of the winter time treasures is getting up around 6am into the cold air, going through to the kitchen, … More
May Reality guide my every Thought
Took a big long space yesterday afternoon and evening away from the demands of the world. A therapy client then … More
Into the Body
There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More
In the Present with Nature
Enjoyed yesterday out in the park getting more still inside. I set myself a challenge to find beauty in the … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
Emerging from Turbulence
I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More
Celebrating Achievements
My son Tobie and his gf J are still here and she cooked a wonderful Portuguese duck and rice dinner … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
Different Rhythm
A little bumpy adjusting last night to not having my usual near complete peace and solitude! Young people drinking and … More
Taking risks, trusting…
The dissolution of individual self, as that happens I am more free to be really myself. Free of fear running … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Tools for dealing with Rumination
One trigger after the next the last few days! It has been painfully uncomfortable though feel grateful to the experience … More
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More
Making Life a bit more Fun
Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
The Magic of Self Love ❤️
Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list. … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
Love Bombs
I’ve been dropping these love bombs on my beleaguered conditioned psyche recently. Think there’s quite a lot of inner adjustments … More
You are held, you are cared for, you are loved
Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
Thank you Body, thank you Shower…
I look down at my body standing there and I thank it for working so well. Then I thank the … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
I love you, I admire you, I thank you….
Whenever I surfaced from sleep in the early hours, I would say, “I love you Susan”, and then onto several … More
Letting Go
I am well, relatively calm, and yet something is very different. I’m having these 8 and 9 and 10 hour … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Smoothness
Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
More Calmness
Such a treat to go through these last days nearly entirely anxiety free and to experience being this free from … More
Not Two
The feeling residue of the ‘tantric sex’ dream was with me almost all day yesterday. That phrase tantric sex actually … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Back out of It
As of yesterday, another project is more or less arranged for the men to move onto. I bounce out of … More
Flow of Experience
Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More
Violins in the Park
Contracting up….noticing noticing….And relaxing back into aware space and remembering to breath. A beautiful morning walk and lunch at the … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Hello Sad
Sadness has arrived this morning seemingly on the back of a dream. So I’m being here in it, with it. … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Learning to Rest with it All 