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Category: anxiety
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Sunk Mood at the Start
Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
Too much Happening
Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Rainy Monday
Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea, … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Disturbing Dream
Woke up late and a bit disturbed in the feelings. Such a long intense real dream with M. He’s the … More
Hello again Sadness and Anxiety
How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Today this Helped
I was feeling tight in the throat and chest, feeling the contraction of anxiety. So I went out for a … More
Fearlessness Training
The kickback comes as a training exercise. Fearlessness is bathed in and then, anything fearful inside arises. The mere hint … More
Relaxing and Contracting
I just sent the price over to the (potential) next client. The job that is due to start in a … More
Angst
Back ‘in it’ again. Not exactly a ‘dark night of the soul’ level but anxious a lot. I wasn’t able … More
Tilopa’s advice – No thought, no reflection, no analysis
Deep in beautiful quiet study this morning listening to Tilopa, Longchenpa and Garab Dorje and feeling into the calmness under … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Half Full/Half Empty
The half full perspective. It’s a beautiful sunny morning here. The men all have work and a job lined up … More
Enlightenment, what is it?
Another ordinary day with its guest star ⭐️ beauty ⭐️ present much of the time yesterday. Went to the park … More
Sitting back inside
Been practicing and practicing through the night whenever I surface and this morning when I awoke and dropped off and … More
Feeling Supported
Sitting outside after the vet with a couple of neighbours, kind people with such good hearts, and my concerned 79 … More
The Resolution of Anxiety – very long Wise Quote
By James Low 1. The ground of all experience, and therefore of everything, is nothing other than our own presence. … More
Another day
Having a crash inside this morning, nothing tangible just woke feeling low energy, anxiety waves, sluggish. Any thought about business … More
Fun and Sharing day
Been loving the depth of sharing from my son T. Some of it quite hard for a mother to listen … More
Old Patterns
Checking in early today with some anxiety as I awoke out of a stress producing dream, that must have stirred … More
Sitting into Trust
Awoke slowly and the words of the Gayatri arose again. I am in good company! And I fell asleep last … More
Expanding and Contracting
While I’ve been feeling way more like the waves than the ocean recently, it was a lovely day yesterday, despite … More
Supplements, minerals and drugs
The only time I felt at ease yesterday was when I found a spot in the long grass with the … More
Shadow work by Dream
Dreamt I was back in an office after 3 or 4 days off. I was asked by some colleagues if … More
Dark Night Cont…
What a drama it all is right now. Still in this trial of a time, and this fear is in … More
Praying, Nature and Anxiety
Still been waking up with these worry thoughts that create anxiety if I don’t notice them, which I’m not managing … More
Worry Thoughts
The more I practice dropping into the feelings in the body, the more pain I uncover. There’s a whole lineup … More
Relationship with Mum
I will maybe explore this over a few days as it will be too long. First I’ll lay out the … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Overload
Feeling quite stressed. Do I know what that is about, well yes I do. This whole process of facing and … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
Surfacing Core Wounds
I had a long site visit yesterday and extensive chats with the client, the men and tree surgeons about having … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Business Tasks and Procrastination – Part 1
I had an odd realisation that I want to explore in the name of honesty with myself. It is a … More
Honesty Dose
I want to put these down before my ego, which doesn’t like remembering these kind of uncomfortable things, shuts it … More
Defending a Position
Day 4 of this headache! and feeling quite worn down and mostly want to lie down a lot. It has … More
Learning to Rest with it All 