Three potential conflict incomings yesterday were like little stones plopping into my quiet still pond, creating perturbations emotionally. 1. A … More
Category: anxiety
Thank you Project
I’m compiling a list of companies and service providers and individuals who I’m going to write to and thank. Things … More
Bumpy Start
I’ve got a crow pal who has befriended me in the park. Recognisable by a few white feathers. As soon … More
Letting go testing
After a few days of a smooth consistency of experiencing, mostly a feeling of spaciousness, just wandering around in nature, … More
Smoothness in the Present
Alert presence moment to moment then broken by thought wandering, then returning to being present. Over and over and over, … More
Magic of Nature
The day’s variables were too complex and uncertain for my mind to try to work out so I just let … More
Back to the Present
Sitting here in bed with a cup of tea before 7, noticing the coolness in the air on my skin. … More
Contraction and Surrender
Tightness in the chest. Anxiety. I see you, I accept you, I allow you, hello. I breathe. Here I am, … More
Pause and Connect
Grounding in the body I feel the body’s weight sitting in the chair, the feet on the ground. I place … More
Open to Feelings
I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More
More Contrast
I saw a good potential job yesterday though I may have blown it by what I said. They have a … More
Handshake with Feelings
Miraculously I did find a place of peace inside yesterday. I thought I was going to melt with all that … More
Tension Building
Out the door at 7am with the dog for a short walk. Awake at 4Am. Today too anxious to be … More
Hell Realms – A Welcome
For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More
Sunny Day
A good day surprisingly after that news. Yes I have some fear. Life goes on…other stuff doesn’t seem to become … More
The Choice
I talk kindly to myself. Here we are in this moment. Breathing in and out from the belly. Notice the … More
Calm amid the Storm
Yes feeling balanced despite no change in circumstances. Feels like a miracle. Everything is the same as it was that … More
Keeping it Together, just
In the shower I run my hands down over the body and say hello to my tummy, hello to the … More
Sluggish Start
So this post started in one mood and ended in a completely altered one after I interacted in a positive … More
Sent the price
I sent the price. Three choices, £97k, £84k or £75k. Not small amounts obviously and none of which will make … More
Thank you for Enchantment
Even when a whole lot else is going on there’s always wonder and curiosity and enchantment and magic all around. … More
Lowness
Been curious about this mood of malaise that has been here over the last days and week in particular. I … More
Back in Hell
Okay I’m being over dramatic. Its a beautiful morning, I have nothing painful physically going on, I’m cosy, comfy, the … More
Forgiveness
Forgiveness in ACIM states that the ‘sin’ never happened so there’s nothing to forgive. Just an error that wasn’t real … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Follow the Joy
Awake at 6ish, and some part was feeling anxious and I had to take action before it was escalated by … More
More Specifics
Awake with tea in bed at 5am again. Love the early to sleep/early to awake cycle I get onto for … More
Accommodating Stress
Just after 8am and here I sit as my lovely kitchen table with a fire and a cup of tea … More
In the shower noticing
In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More
Noticing
As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, … More
Into the Body
There was a lot of talk about love and fear yesterday with 2 therapy clients both of whom were experiencing … More
Facing it All
“Thank you for being here, it’s good to have your company”, I say to Elsa when she comes over for … More
Returning
Slowly returning to myself. Managed some self kindness practices this morning before I got up. Hand on the chest, other … More
Still in Worry
This is what the iChing said to me earlier Transcending the entire situation = turning away to attend to higher … More
Exploring Fear
All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More
Secret business stresses
I just need to get this all out, mostly business related. Secret because I don’t share this much with anyone, … More
Sunk Mood at the Start
Then a bit of changing the channel inside helped shift me out of it. Woke feeling an anxiety that has … More
A dream and meaning
Thoughts on the dream below. I watched a couple of videos last night of people who’d had near death experiences … More
Too much Happening
Strong dreams again which I think are actually lucid since I know I’m in one and can decide what to … More
Hello again Anxiety
Awoke with disturbed feelings amid a vivid dream about C. The theme was me trying to get love and him … More
Ruffled up a Bit
Bit ruffled up inside again this morning. Though I started the day on awakening in bed with a hand on … More
Unnecessary Thinking
Feeling odd, bit off centre. Let me drop into my feelings right now, what do I experience in my body? … More
Conversing with Fear
Feeling a bit uptight this morning. Hmmm. Curious about what’s happening. ‘Hello again fear, how it’s going. Anything you want … More
‘I love you, I’m here for you, you are valued…’
Grateful for this moment. It is peaceful, nothing awful is happening in close proximity, it’s warm enough, and there’s a … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Rainy Monday
Grey and very wet morning and I’ve been cheering myself up by singing as I get dressed and make tea, … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Facing Reactivity
Bang bang bang…all that surrendering to love then back ‘in it’. Triggered on several fronts. Hello again reactivity. It rained … More
Encounter with Resistance
Thrilled to be noticing how integrated my self talk has become recently. There is barely anything other than positive affirmative … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Imagination and Suffering
A visitation from emotional pain. Goodness gracious, what a level of suffering I went into yesterday. Succumbed to worries about … More
Pausing and Allowing
Saw an otter yesterday in the river just after I had a strong inner prompting to slow right down to … More
New Day
New Life. New reset perhaps. Something does feel very very different. Just about in the clear covid wise, the test … More
Surfing Anxiety
That’s what it feels like when I allow myself to feel anxiety without collapsing into it and drowning in it. … More
Monday Morning Healing
Yesterday a new pine woodland to explore beyond the city. The vibration of driving calmed the nervous system, new sights, … More
Shame
Trigger warning – this post about shame may be triggering for some to read, so please tread with caution. I … More
Learning to Rest in Awareness
Being awake in bed and just being for a while. Not doing anything. Not picking up the iPad. No rush … More
Disturbing Dream
Woke up late and a bit disturbed in the feelings. Such a long intense real dream with M. He’s the … More
Hello again Sadness and Anxiety
How unpredictable life can be ! We never know what life will present us with, or where the next challenge … More
Learning to Rest with it All 