This morning for a couple of hours drifting in and out of sleep….when I awake I immediately take my awareness … More
Category: allowing joy
Facing the Fears one by one
The fear of relaxing has been coming up a lot, based I think on the untrue belief that if I … More
Opening and Allowing
The magical feel good juju that is gathered up by being present is not a reward that the ego/personality wants. … More
Feeling Blessed
Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with … More
Open to Feelings
I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More
Here and Now.
I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More
Note from the Edge
I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More
I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….
Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change … More
Allowing
Dropping down out of the head area and orienting from the heart/chest/midriff/tummy area of the body is remaining with me. … More
Happy Arisings
Submerging intensely into a state of deep appreciation of this beautiful animal I share my life with….treasuring and savouring each … More
Good Cheer
Friend N called me by mistake at 3.30am and it’s now at 5.30 still awake. But happily drinking tea and … More
The Company I Keep
Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More
The Circumstantial I and the Essential I
The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More
Greeting Myself in the Morning
Good morning and warm greetings to you. Welcome to another day. I love you. I say to myself on awakening. … More
The Joy Waiting for Us
A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More
Choosing what Company to Keep
And this weekend as I was alone, that meant the company I chose to keep online. I chose to spend … More
Celebrating Talents
I find myself acknowledging how talented I am tonight, and feeling appreciative and extra loving of myself. How seldom I … More
5am
I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More
Celebrating Achievements
My son Tobie and his gf J are still here and she cooked a wonderful Portuguese duck and rice dinner … More
‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’
It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More
Socialising
Bit of a round up summary of the last few days. The journey continues into the New Year, it’s all … More
Loving everything…
….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More
“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Cicero
1. My adorable son, my very long term friends and family and lovely dog. My new friends E, R, E … More
Moments of Grace
The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More
Less Afraid of Feelings
Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More
Nothing is Wrong
Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More
Restoration of Love
Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More
Quickening
It’s happening. Inside definitely expansion and expansion and outside…. I hope, I think I sense…that a critical mass of people … More
Aloneness (in relation to Covid)
Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More
Inner Bonding
Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More
Reconnecting – List
The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More
Luxury Waking Up
The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More
Making Life a bit more Fun
Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More
Calming the Nervous System
A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I … More
The Magic of Self Love ❤️
Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list. … More
Back to Love
Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More
Surrendering
It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More
Updated Positive Self Talk list
I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More
No Complaints
The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More
I love, I respect and I like Myself
Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More
Thank you Body, thank you Shower…
I look down at my body standing there and I thank it for working so well. Then I thank the … More
You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You
Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More
A Wonderful Day
Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More
What a Great Day
Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More
Smoothness
Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More
Tantric Sex Dream
Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More
Really really Free
Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More
Navigating Feelings and Thoughts
Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More
Not Scared
‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More
Evening Thanks
Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More
Feeling Well
I ping pong between dread and anxiety and trust and go with the flow and this blog is the drama … More
Wednesday Diary
After a bumpy start yesterday, seeing a therapy client and feeling useful from that then being outside in nature by … More
Noticing and Dissolving Fears
Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More
Safe and Home
Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More
Allowing Well-being
Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More
Turning Towards Feelings
Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More
Beautiful Morning
After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More
Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness
Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More
Day to Day Life
It’s a rainy windy one out there today. Been a very rainy month but the greenery is so lush as … More
Peace of the Present
Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More