Tightness in the Throat

This morning for a couple of hours drifting in and out of sleep….when I awake I immediately take my awareness … More

Facing the Fears one by one

The fear of relaxing has been coming up a lot, based I think on the untrue belief that if I … More

Opening and Allowing

The magical feel good juju that is gathered up by being present is not a reward that the ego/personality wants. … More

Feeling Blessed

Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with … More

Open to Feelings

I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More

Here and Now.

I sit breathing low and steady, noticing emotions that are jangling around in my throat area and solar plexus. This … More

Note from the Edge

I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More

I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….

Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change … More

Allowing

Dropping down out of the head area and orienting from the heart/chest/midriff/tummy area of the body is remaining with me. … More

Happy Arisings

Submerging intensely into a state of deep appreciation of this beautiful animal I share my life with….treasuring and savouring each … More

Good Cheer

Friend N called me by mistake at 3.30am and it’s now at 5.30 still awake. But happily drinking tea and … More

The Company I Keep

Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More

The Circumstantial I and the Essential I

The ‘Circumstantial I’ – the fluctuating waves on the surface and the ‘Essential I’, the ocean. I’m listening to Eckhart … More

Greeting Myself in the Morning

Good morning and warm greetings to you. Welcome to another day. I love you. I say to myself on awakening. … More

The Joy Waiting for Us

A late and very deep therapy session with a client. Talked about joyfulness being ever present and just waiting for … More

Choosing what Company to Keep

And this weekend as I was alone, that meant the company I chose to keep online. I chose to spend … More

Celebrating Talents

I find myself acknowledging how talented I am tonight, and feeling appreciative and extra loving of myself. How seldom I … More

5am

I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More

Celebrating Achievements

My son Tobie and his gf J are still here and she cooked a wonderful Portuguese duck and rice dinner … More

‘Oh hello little toes, hello legs’

It was only towards the end of the shower that I realised I hadn’t been really there for the experience. … More

Socialising

Bit of a round up summary of the last few days. The journey continues into the New Year, it’s all … More

Loving everything…

….is the direction this is going. And that is exciting and quite scary too when I think of what I … More

“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Cicero

1. My adorable son, my very long term friends and family and lovely dog. My new friends E, R, E … More

Moments of Grace

The moments I savour and appreciate. I get up at 8am each morning after a cup of tea and an … More

Less Afraid of Feelings

Same again. This is how the tools are learned. After noticing a slight unease inside, I went down out of … More

Nothing is Wrong

Almost all day up I was noticeably comfortable in my own skin, and at ease with life. Couple of trigger … More

Restoration of Love

Ooo well that little foray yesterday ended with me in quite a lot of tears as I described my experience … More

Quickening

It’s happening. Inside definitely expansion and expansion and outside…. I hope, I think I sense…that a critical mass of people … More

Aloneness (in relation to Covid)

Bit of a long one today. And maybe controversial if you support the conventional approach to the vaccines and other … More

Inner Bonding

Intangible anxiety for an hour on awaking. Not a single thing in the daily life that would justify anxiety at … More

Reconnecting – List

The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More

Luxury Waking Up

The experience of awaking this morning was delightful. As soon as I realised I was awake I started saying a … More

Making Life a bit more Fun

Each day starts with noticing that I’m waking from sleep. Immediately some words of love and support come into my … More

Calming the Nervous System

A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I … More

The Magic of Self Love ❤️

Each morning in the early hours when I stir from sleep I say some of the phrases from my list. … More

Back to Love

Tired this morning, 4 hours sleep after staying up exceedingly late into the night watching series 5 of the Handmaiden’s … More

Surrendering

It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More

Updated Positive Self Talk list

I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More

No Complaints

The leaves are falling at quite a pace now, and darkness closes in as winter approaches. I make the house … More

I love, I respect and I like Myself

Breakfast in the park and walk with a friend in the morning, then a deeply restful afternoon yesterday. After that … More

Thank you Body, thank you Shower…

I look down at my body standing there and I thank it for working so well. Then I thank the … More

You are Loved, You are cherished, I’m here for You

Another long sleep and bobbing in and out of sleep from the early hours. And again I went through the … More

A Wonderful Day

Yesterday was wonderful. First, a long term therapy client made some important little breakthroughs. And he is now a month … More

What a Great Day

Long intense detailed dream of me and another one or two friends actually inside this AI art program. Instead of … More

Smoothness

Ease of being the last while. Not wanting much I notice and that seems to be a secret of well-being. … More

Tantric Sex Dream

Dream last night. A sacred encounter no less, and the ultimate slow sex experience. We were completely and utterly in … More

Really really Free

Yesterday – was such a joy of a day. There was a therapy client first thing on Zoom. Every session … More

Navigating Feelings and Thoughts

Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More

Not Scared

‘The Force’ is playing a game of brinkmanship it seems, it’s really ‘me’ though – maybe I’m testing resilience against … More

Evening Thanks

Breath in……and out….saying thank you inside as I exhale. Breath in…and out…..thank you. A pause to be grateful. Thank you … More

Feeling Well

I ping pong between dread and anxiety and trust and go with the flow and this blog is the drama … More

Wednesday Diary

After a bumpy start yesterday, seeing a therapy client and feeling useful from that then being outside in nature by … More

Noticing and Dissolving Fears

Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More

Safe and Home

Again this morning, the Gayatri ‘tat savitur varenyam, bargo devasya demahi, diyoyo naprachodyaat’ and peace, peace and more peace. Then … More

Allowing Well-being

Sun shining on the trees out the windows this morning, and all is well. Allowing well-being to shine too, and … More

Turning Towards Feelings

Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More

Beautiful Morning

After session with a client yesterday I walked to the allotment with the dog through the little woods. I stayed … More

Procrastination Part 2 and Resistance to Happiness

Coming here and writing was a big help yesterday. It is often helpful for clarifying and clearing the mind, and … More

Day to Day Life

It’s a rainy windy one out there today. Been a very rainy month but the greenery is so lush as … More

Peace of the Present

Experiencing a noticeable lack of awareness of ‘me’ recently. Or at least the thoughts aren’t so strongly self referential. I … More