Into the Now

‘This is all there is’ and ‘this is it’ have been resounding this morning as I find myself somehow sort … More

Bumpy Start

I’ve got a crow pal who has befriended me in the park. Recognisable by a few white feathers. As soon … More

Feeling Blessed

Another day, and perhaps one of allowing this peace inside and presence to continue, let’s see what I do with … More

Absence of Fear

Here I am again in this moment. Always this moment, and everything seems to slow right down and extend out. … More

Open to Feelings

I’m listening to Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s Open to Feelings 13 minute guided meditation. Must be over 40 times I’ve watched that … More

Changing Vistas

I’m in the shower and the mind goes this way and that. There’s so much action ahead this week, the … More

Strong Healing Medicine

The will to remain conscious is strong just now. Thank you very much to the pain of imagined adversity for … More

Note from the Edge

I had a sense/vision of myself in the future. I was dead and it was a post death ‘life review’. … More

Relaxing the Resistance

Relaxed the resistance a few notches and then find that solutions appear. With a lot of help which I asked … More

Hell Realms – A Welcome

For as long as I can remember, fearlessness has been my goal. This is what happens. All the fears come … More

Sunny Day

A good day surprisingly after that news. Yes I have some fear. Life goes on…other stuff doesn’t seem to become … More

Riding Highs and Lows

The frosty fresh air and unique smells and energies of the early morning hit me in my face and it’s … More

Starving thoughts of Attention

Brain is saying any old shit. Any number of comments on life or about this or that, me and how … More

I love you, I appreciate you, I value you….

Said a few times gently with a hand on the chest, while generating kindness and compassion….after a deep breath. Change … More

Good Cheer

Friend N called me by mistake at 3.30am and it’s now at 5.30 still awake. But happily drinking tea and … More

The Company I Keep

Woke up having a dream I was fighting with robots, (and winning!). Had watched iRobot last night with Will Smith. … More

Being in the Body

Sleep scored an ‘excellent’ 92/100 by the Fitbit last night. Early to sleep and early to awake at 6am. This … More

Choosing what Company to Keep

And this weekend as I was alone, that meant the company I chose to keep online. I chose to spend … More

Scarcity and Abundance

I dance between the two. If I allow myself to be hauled by my mind with its fearful thoughts into … More

In the shower noticing

In the shower noticing the feeling of the water spraying on my head, the little rivulets running over the skin, … More

Exploring Fear

All future focussed, the fear. In the present, I don’t feel it. That’s why I get that ‘beside myself’ sense … More

5am

I started this day in such a lovely calm way. Arranging the pillows for sitting up and leaving the light … More

Emerging from Turbulence

I think was resisting it, and trying to get a control thing going. My mind was saying You’re just not … More

Reconnecting – List

The changes, leaps and new realisations require time and space to settle in. So I’m just having a simple little … More

Calming the Nervous System

A nine hour sleep last night and as I awoke I put my hand on my heart and said I … More

Surrendering

It’s pouring right now, windy and dark outside. Leaves flying off the trees. Inside it’s still and warm and cosy … More

The Smooth and the Hard times

It was a pretty serious session with the first client in the morning, with death as a theme. Of her … More

Updated Positive Self Talk list

I love you I respect you I care about you I want the best for you I appreciate you I … More

Surrendering back into Love

Working away on my irritated reactiveness to noises, noticing that crucial tension point of decision…. ….to ally myself with the … More

Handing over Objections

Playing with the order of positive self soothing affirmations this morning. I have been introducing this manner of of talking … More

Love Bombs

I’ve been dropping these love bombs on my beleaguered conditioned psyche recently. Think there’s quite a lot of inner adjustments … More

You are held, you are cared for, you are loved

Out into the Sunday morning sunshine, a slow amble along the swollen river to the now rather muddy edge of … More

Flow of Experience

Being carried along by the morning’s experiences Noticing the way the early sunshine beams through the room. Bending down to … More

Navigating Feelings and Thoughts

Windy wet start out there this morning. Dog curled up happy beside me. Nearly always open and happy she is, … More

Surfing the Constant Fluctuations

Same again this morning, woke with disturbance inside, anxiety while coming out of a dream of being in the middle … More

Noticing and Dissolving Fears

Some fear and dread appeared again this morning, I could feel the sensation of the constriction in the throat and … More

Turning Towards Feelings

Awoke with the start of some little nippy worry thoughts arising in between sleep as I surfaced. The ones that … More

The Truth at any Price

A glimpse of sun after all the rain yesterday enticed me out for an early walk this morning which was … More

Resistance and Suffering

Today a big rain arrived after weeks of dryness. It added exciting new sensory elements to walking up the river. … More