As I step out of bed I remember to be present to the actual experience of it consciously. Why not, this is the entirety of my life happening right now in this moment and I might as well be here fully for the experience. I breath.
What do I sense….the feel of the soft carpet under my bare feet, the comfort and warmth, and then through to the hall and a change of sensation as I walk over the wooden floor. Then the cool bathroom tiles. It’s beneficial to be here, I love it. All is well here. No thoughts required.
Now I feel the weight of my body as I sit on this comfy cushion. I hear the traffic in the distance woosh past, the hum of the central heating. The light touch of the fingertips as I type this on on the iPad. The taste of tea. The warmth of the air. Squeaking floorboards from above nearby in the hall. I see the blue sky out the window and the flowers of my plants. Quite a lot happening.
Last night was a 3 hour Zoom session with friends E and S, which we all loved. We covered the gamut of what’s going on for us, from fears to celebrating ourselves, and with great honesty. This was very nutritious.
After a very relaxed weekend of space and freedom and rest and walks it’s Monday and today is a busy one. I have 4 therapy clients, 2 this morning and 2 late afternoon. In between I’ll drop off the plants I bought at the nursery on Saturday to the project we are finishing. Will get updates from both teams. I will finalise the costing for the next project. I notice a small spike of anxiety thinking about that. Why? Thoughts of things that could go wrong. They could reject it. I could underprice it. What could go right? They accept it and I price it well and the suppliers are covered, the business makes money. Best to notice the fears, say thanks for the danger alert, and just get on with it.
Learning to Rest with it All 