It was useful to read this Course in Miracles Excerpt earlier, to be reminded of that sense of an expanded sense of self, the transpersonal Self. The shrunken sense of self, all alone and afraid, is simply mistaken. It is believing what is not true, that we are fundamentally deficient in some way. That we are not adequate just as we are. But we are 100% adequate, and 100% lovable fundamentally. That does not mean that there isn’t at times a need for self correction, maybe I could have said something in a more loving way…and I notice that. Maybe I give I to a reactive response and act on that, and I notice that and resolve to sit more in the west of Self. That is self correction.
The last week I notice that sense of self has shrunk into a little self, I think since prepping to do YouTube videos. Plus these victories and successes I have acknowledged over my reactions, this is a bit of a kickback.
The fear. It jumped up, as I knew it would. It is the reason I’ve avoided talking in public my whole life. It’s a perfect example of how believing in a fear can alter our perception….to a faulty perception. Since it’s a false fear. An untruth. There is nothing to be afraid of here. Just making some videos.
The iChing said to me yesterday “Move forward like a soldier of the heart, unafraid of what you encounter.” Back to the heart and the senses in this present moment where I am open and there is nothing to fear. I notice the old remnants of the past coming from the mind and I don’t let them advise.
What a process this opening up to love completely and utterly.
“Everyone has experienced what he would call a sense of being transported beyond himself. ²This feeling of liberation far exceeds the dream of freedom sometimes hoped for in special relationships. ³It is a sense of actual escape from limitations. ⁴If you will consider what this “transportation” really entails, you will realize that it is a sudden unawareness of the body, and a joining of yourself and something else in which your mind enlarges to encompass it. ⁵It becomes part of you, as you unite with it. ⁶And both become whole, as neither is perceived as separate. ⁷What really happens is that you have given up the illusion of a limited awareness, and lost your fear of union. ⁸The love that instantly replaces it extends to what has freed you, and unites with it. ⁹And while this lasts you are not uncertain of your Identity, and would not limit It. ¹⁰You have escaped from fear to peace, asking no questions of reality, but merely accepting it. ¹¹You have accepted this instead of the body, and have let yourself be one with something beyond it, simply by not letting your mind be limited by it.
12. This can occur regardless of the physical distance that seems to be between you and what you join; of your respective positions in space; and of your differences in size and seeming quality. ²Time is not relevant; it can occur with something past, present or anticipated. ³The “something” can be anything and anywhere; a sound, a sight, a thought, a memory, and even a general idea without specific reference. ⁴Yet in every case, you join it without reservation because you love it, and would be with it. ⁵And so you rush to meet it, letting your limits melt away, suspending all the “laws” your body obeys and gently setting them aside.
13. There is no violence at all in this escape. ²The body is not attacked, but simply properly perceived. ³It does not limit you, merely because you would not have it so. ⁴You are not really “lifted out” of it; it cannot contain you. ⁵You go where you would be, gaining, not losing, a sense of Self. ⁶In these instants of release from physical restrictions, you experience much of what happens in the holy instant; the lifting of the barriers of time and space, the sudden experience of peace and joy, and, above all, the lack of awareness of the body, and of the questioning whether or not all this is possible.
14. It is possible because you want it. ²The sudden expansion of awareness that takes place with your desire for it is the irresistible appeal the holy instant holds. ³It calls to you to be yourself, within its safe embrace. ⁴There are the laws of limit lifted for you, to welcome you to openness of mind and freedom. ⁵Come to this place of refuge, where you can be yourself in peace. ⁶Not through destruction, not through a breaking out, but merely by a quiet melting in. ⁷For peace will join you there, simply because you have been willing to let go the limits you have placed upon love, and joined it where it is and where it led you, in answer to its gentle call to be at peace.”
Some of it is hard to access in places for me due to the Christian language but when I go beyond that, I’m taken into an expanded Self. It’s a book that I’d have in my 5 desert island books.